I finally realized something...alot of my friends...aren't all that great...I mean...they have their moments and they're fun but...they're not very supportive or helpful...at all...
Except for a select few...
For example...the way that Kai, Hope, Hannah, Mark, and Poe Poe (well I've always disliked him but this is for a different reason) treat Rick...
I mean he practically gives them money and gifts and they treat him like s**t...I dont understand their logic...even the orchestra people treat him like s**t...even though he plans events and coordinates a hell of alot more than they could ever dream of doing because they lack initiative and are just lazy...
I've been trying to figure out how to remedy this problem...because Rick is a better friend than the rest of the people are at this point...recently I've just been ignoring and avoiding them...that can't go on forever...
As for the second part...the emptiness has pretty much gone away...but every now and then it comes back worse than ever...random things trigger it...I havent figured it out yet completely...but I havent cut for several months...that has to be a good sign...
and thats all for now folks...I suppose...
oh yeah PSAT Testing was today...I did shitty I'm sure
bwahahahaha...collage board demons...
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