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Everything was good you know..*clenches fist* but man..I just exploded everywhere. Savannah came over you know? so yeah, but Mai Lea and Lyndsay were over and I dont know? Ahaha...I was a wench...Mai lea and Lyndsay had to leave cause lyndsay had to leave, but savannah was over so it was okay...haha...even though I was like...ARGGGG!! at the time. Savannah said Im ganna leave, cause your crabby. I said something and she asked whats wrong. I said everything..cause it was, she told me stuff...and I didnt want to hear it because im sensitive to it, and my cousin dying last week and they just tell me, yeah I didnt know him that well hung out with him 3 times but at 15 he had to die? What if there is no heaven? *shrug* I dont know...and I told savannah she wouldnt understand I wont even say it all here. Blah..i've got to talk to...well I shouldn't. Gah...

but whatever I was a fricker yesterday I said i'd eat because I just want to be fat and locked in my house I wanted to die yesterday for no reason...i've delt with everything before so why's it hard now? Whats going on you know? Deaths not worth it but jeeze yesterday I was so fricken stupid its not funny. This is why I hate myself...but i'll be fine in a few hours I guess. I slept enough 5:30 to 7:45 this morning. Whatever. Peace.