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Today I feel something diffrent but it isin't happiness. I feel scared but sad and it is so diffrent than being angry all the time. Usually I just want to hurt everything and hope that will make me feel better but my boyfriend dosen't let me because he dosen't want me to get arrested or hurt anybody so I keep the anger locked up and I put on a fake smile for him no matter how much I want to just want to yell. He feels better because he just huggs me and he is always trying to be near me. Like the other day this guy made me mad so I started after him and my boyfriend grabed me from behind and just sat there hugging me until I was ok. I felt better when he stopped me because there are cops everywhere in my school.