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is it to decieve others to benefit yourself?
to lie to get what you want?
to use others and have not a care?
or is it just testing how terrible we bastards can act, and still be allowed into heaven? to have friends? to have our awful acts unnoticed day by day?
i'm so sick of being used by everyone...yet i still let them walk on me. this just goes to show how weak and dependent i am and the extremes i take to earn a 'boyfriend' or a 'best friend' of those likes. are there any people left in the world who can still be kind, honest, and loving, and mean it? or am i going to have to be alone the rest of my life, watching my own back? no one watched it for me-even after hundreds of hours of me looking after them, caring for them, forviving them-no one has my back!! i can't even watch myself anymore...
so yeah. my new outlook on life. enjoy, bastards. you've ruined what my dad has put in my lifetime raising me, and you bastards took it away in a matter of minute years...