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IT WILL AWAYS BE YOUR FAULT!!!
*These weren't her mothers exact words but she new that, thats what she meant.
Her mother was very good at hiding the true meaning of her words.
She new, she new EXACTLY how her mothers mind worked so she was saying in the scrambled deceitful lies of the little things that people use every day to communicate, Although when she her mother says these words, she yells them.
*When she was younger she remembers her mom saying "my mom was mean and cruel to me and I never want to be like her".
Every night (or at least it seamed like it was every night) she would scream the hidden hateful words that her daughter new so well.Sometimes she felt like screaming back "I HATE TO TELL YOU THIS MOM BUT YOU BECAME EXACTLY LIKE GRANDMA!!"
*She couldn't wait till she was 18 and she could finally get away from the yelling,the lies,the attitude,the fake smiles, and of course the ever popular guilt trips.
You know they always say "don't give into the pressure, but she really couldn't hold out any longer.
She would finally start doing things to relieve her if the pain that she felt inside.
Every day she went to school, no one had a clue of the pain she felt.
She would always do what the stupid depression icons said, She would wear fake smiles, and laugh as much as needed to make people believe that she was ok.

She was the girl that had no problems.

But some day, some day.......

hiding wont work anymore.....