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I hate myself! I act the same way on Gaia than I do in real life, but I have more friends in reallife than I do in gaia...Sometimes I wish that some people would get run-over by transport trucks...It's alot better than shooting them. Life really sucks for me. We got our school pics back today...and I look horrible. And I explained why I hardly ever smile or talk to anyone to my friends. Then some cable guy came and set up cable for us. He smelt like cigars and he was really old and ugly. No one reads this...and I dun care. Life sucks...blah blah blah...I submited a picture into a contest and got 6th place when everyone was sure I'd get first. It's only because of who I am that I got 6th. They don't like me. But instead they placed Kaitlyn first. Ex-Sion told me not to worry about it, but I can't help but to. Why do people judge you because of what you look like and your interests? I have the feeling they don't like me because of what I look like and my interests. I'm totally interested in rpgs and they're busy with make-up. They just don't like me for who I am. I can't change that, but I guess they'll never really be my friends if that's the reason. The only time they're ever nice to me is if they want me to draw something for them, or give them the answer to some problem. Yeah, I've felt totally used for most of my life. But I'm proud of who I am...so there was no particular reason for me to say this.