Well as anyone might be able to tell from hints, I've been wanting to write a story (Fantasy/Action/Romance) for the past 3~4-ish years. Yeah, Unfortunately I'm really nervous about everything and I'm a bit of a procrastinator. Not to mention, I spent too much time on the computer than doing the things that I want to do.
4 years is a long time to think about something every single day, but I haven't written any kind of script on paper. Yeah, by script, I don't want it to be a book but more of an Anime or Manga. I know I won't be able to do it by myself but for now, I need to develop everything before actual work comes into progress. That's my problem. I care too much about people seeing something unfinished. Let alone do something knowing my parents are around.
Why? ah... I just don't want their image of me to change. Right now, I look like a great normal person and spending constant development on something that could be perceived as something else before explained could be a hassle and probably a big social downfall. I Considered explaining more of my current issues with these past 3~4 years but I know that not all people can have a large attention span. I just wanted to say that I do have a dream and that not all dreams are easy to accomplish.
Constantly I'm afraid that I'll die at any given moment because I feel I have not fulfilled my purpose.
Akemi Yukio · Thu Jan 10, 2008 @ 02:25am · 0 Comments |