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They push me to the mirror, and ask me what I see
A lie, a curse, a human of no value
They ask how I can hate myself with such ferocity
But I know no other way

With garments of ebony, I become one with the night
Where I've been or where I'm going, forgotten or unknown
Perhaps one day, I'll taste the light
But for now my home is darkness

I'm no stranger to the fear
It's scars etched into my meager memories
My shrieks no one can hear
Because solitude blankets my existence

I bite and claw at the hand I've been delt
Although I know that life's not fair
I wait and wait, for the pain to pelt
Because I've been okay too long

I'm no stranger to the numb
I feel when I don't want to, and don't when I need
The anguish and lack of hope, force me to succumb
To the twisted ways of the unnatural dark

This is not life, but existence
To live to die, and die to live again
I frantically search my crumbling world for reassurance
That this dark night gives way to dawn

This disease forces me to my knees in silent exertion
Tears and blood dot the cold bare floor
Screams and sobs add to there unknown excursion
Pieces of me that will never return

I'm no stranger to this pain
A familiar friend and innevitable foe
To hide my tears, I walk in the rain
Always searching for my light

Droplets of sadness fall from the sky
And gather in puddles of despair
I tell myself "I will not cry"
Even so the ground swims before me

My pants and gasps fall upon deaf ears
My scars upon blind eyes
I wait and wait, until the black storm clears
But no such event occurs

Take my heart, my soul, my life, they mean nothing anymore
So what if all's left is an empty shell
It's no different than before