the days of darkness
the days of darkness was loney and deppressing ... it was harsh and missurable. long ago they days used to not be so dark and deppressing ... but they ppl started hating others for they way they truly r ... and so those ppl starts gets worse ad worse about acting like something there not ... well i can tell u ... if it comes down to it ... i will never change ... and if someone dont like it ... well then i will jsut leave them alone and not speak to them .... not trying to hurt them or anything but if they cant except someone for who they truly r then they shouldnt even now them. or atleast that is wat i think..... i guess i will truly never be welcomed into this world because no one will truly want me to be me ... i jsut dont understand y ppl want u to act like something ur not ... its pethetic really .. but hey that is humans for u ... that shows that were really not well for this world ourselfs.
they darkend days r ruff for someone with darkness within them ... it is hard for someone like that to live life so well ... wanting to die some many time thinking that there not worthy for this world or thinking htat its wat everyone want.... but i woulndt now muchy about suicideds because i myself dont even have the guts to try ... i guess if i did this this world would be a lil better ... better from my mistakes and not having to worry aboyut me acting likle who i truly am ........ they say that something u have to live through pain a lil jsut to get through life itself ... well i dont think they mean the pain that i have gone through for the past 6 years ... but if they do ... well then i guess that. well i jsut dont now...its like ppl jsut dont want who i really and ... its sad really .. its hurts nowing that ppl dont want the real u but some imatation... but hey thats wat we do right ... we imatate others jsut to get higher in life.
wat is life for anyways... i now it cant be for use humans to be happy... there really isnt happyness in this world ... i mean if u r happy with imatating othere and trying to get in with the right crowd or something then that really isnt u ... they only way i would go into a crowd and talk to ppl that suposedly r my friends r if they except me for who i am and wat i can be... but there r very few that can really do that.
