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I want to re-create my being
I dont want to pertray the shitty person i am
i want you to love me
i want to fell a feeling ive never felt before
i want all my doubts to go away
I want this coldness to be long gone

"Who I Am Hates Who Ive Been"

Im sick of this ******** up state of mind
and undeniable questions
i can still fell you next to me like i used to
i still miss you
i have a new "you" (obsession) now though
i dont want to be like this
my thoughts are ripping trought my head
and anxiety quickly surronded me once more



ill lose my self in the PERFECT make-belive story and put my self in that place
a far away if only
i wonder if this is going to work
******** fall trough
i hate us


i hate me



i forgot how to write


******** me