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What do you do when your dreams are freaking you out but you like them? When you like the ideas they represent because you could never do them in real life.What do you do when you don't know were to go or to turn to as people slowly start to think about there futures and turn away to go somewhere where you may never find them? I dunno.Mom's right I am negative about a lot of things,I can't help it though. I always get that drowned Cat feeling at the end of the school year and now that I have to go it alone for the next 7+ years and restart from scratch I dunno what to do anymore. Everyone is so prepared to pull away. To go off and do something away from everyone they know. It makes me wonder if they really wanna do it or they feel like they just have to. It makes me wonder what I wanna do with myself. I feed off my friends and I need them or I fall apart. It's just really hard on me to know that everyone is splitting apart and some people are cutting all ties to me because they can. I hate people who just drift from friends to friends then complain they have nobody. It pisses me off! What's more are people who brag about themselves and everything. It's alright to be happy for accomplishments but.....

Gah! I dunno I just didn't do much like I wanted to. I never got to make a difference with others. I didn't save anyone frm anything I feel like. "Such a big freakin' waste." that's all I can think of. Yeah,It's negative but I just can't seem to think positive about it in the end. Call it over analyzing but I can't help it ^^''
That's why I sometimes wanna just keep sleeping and keep having adventures with myself and friends. To go through the looking glass and see the other side of the Orb of destiny and be a kid forever. What's the point of growing up anyways? It's the best part of life so let it last as long as possible...Right? Here I am repeating myself again. I just wanna be able to dream away and not be faced with the facts of failure and incompotence on my behalf. I just wanna keep dreaming these dreams were we're all together but they're so damn skittish I can't seem to hold on to them anymore.