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i wrote this because i was sad.... i ment to type it a long time ago when i thought about it but i didnt, and no... i wont kill myself suicide isnt my thing

i count the reasons why i love her as i load the chamber
but i stop at 6 for the gun cant hold anymore
i think about all the pain i have taken because her
i look to the sky and ask why
i beg forgiveness for what i must do
i ask that she will forgive me
pull back the hammer
put it to my head
a soft smile
thinking of all the while
the happiness and thrill
between she and me
but it is all gone you see
that is why i have my gun loaded and pointin it at me
i whisper a soft goodbye
goodbye to all i love and see
good luck in life
soon i hope i will see none of you
and i pull the trigger
the pain is gone
forever gone.... it will be cold
and for so very long...