The Journey of a Lifetime Chapter 2
I was howling so that the ones who could understand, responded but instead what I got was silence. No one answered so I howled. Not knowing if anyone heard or understood. I thought that there was a few left of my kind but I guess I was wrong. No one answered my call so I ended up howling so that I could let my feelings show. I hoped that letting them show would help my emotions inside but it didn’t seem to work.
When I finished howling I remembered my mother saying to me when I was young, “Be strong and courageous. Do not fear the unknown. Be curious for curiosity makes you stronger but also be smart. Know when to stop.” These were her dying words to me but before she died she said one last thing. That thing was, “Also know when to be brave and when to behave. For this is what I didn’t understand and because I didn’t understand it killed me. There are certain times to be strong and courageous but there are also times to listen. Don’t be ashamed to show your feelings for if you show your feelings you might be surprised at how many are going through the same things as you are.” Then she paused taking a deep breath and then carried on. “I don’t want you to mourn for me when I die. I want you to carry on in life. Don’t even dig a grave for me. I don’t want to be mourned for after death. Wipe those tears off of your face! I don’t regret living therefore you shouldn’t regret my death.” After this she felled to the ground never to get up again but because of what she said I stopped howling.
I was still filled with sorrow but I carried on. My head hung low to the ground, my paws dragging on the ground, and my heart as low as it could be with out touching the ground. I was tired but that wasn’t the reason for acting the way I was acting. I was acting the way I was acting was because my step family had just been killed and the one who let me call her mom said basically the same thing as my real birth mom. When she died I didn’t know what to do. I did like I did when my birth mom died; I wandered the earth searching for a purpose in life.
As I stopped howling I went to the cave I had been sleeping in for a while. It was small but just the right size for me, a loner. I had already eaten a rabbit and I was tired and my throat hurt. I tried to say a word and it didn’t even make a sound because my voice had disappeared. It disappeared for I was crying so much but not only because of that but also because I had been howling for so long.
I had reached the cave in time to see the sunset from the top of the roof. The sunset was so beautiful. It warmed by soul and brightened my spirit. I went to the cave afterwards and I fell asleep dreaming of my family that I wanted so badly. A family that would care about me and a family I didn’t have to see die. A family that took care of each other and a family of the same species as I am. It had been my wish since my real family fell to the ground, dead. I have never wanted to be alone. I have always wanted a friend but every time I find one I seem to bring misfortune on them.
After all these dreams of having a family I finally woke up and stood in the morning sun for a while before going down to the lake to drink. When I had made it to the lake I bent down to drink. I wasn’t really hungry so I decided to wait before I ate. I walked over to the cave I had come from before and went back to sleep never to be the same again.
 Fangthorn · Tue Apr 15, 2008 @ 01:41am · 0 Comments |
