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I watched Pirates of the Caribbean, Dead Man's Chest for the first time yesterday.

I want a box to keep my heart in.

I stopped taking my medicine, and discovered that I can't live without it.
Depression isn't sad
Depression is neutral
That slowly turns to :[
That slowly turns to crying at the push of a button because you're sick and unhappy and you've got a bottle of painkillers underneath your bed waiting for you to reach for them.
And yet you still won't take your medicine, because you find a strange and weary serenity when you stop crying, and the medicine makes your mind work all wrong.

But I know it's stupid not to take it. And I know it's stupid not to talk to anyone about it.
So I'm putting things down here.

I want you back. This isn't healthy.
We can't give each other what we need.
But I still love you so much that it hurts.
Or maybe that's just the chemicals talking.