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scary huh?
lacreesha my first rival
that has actualy passed me
is winning alot
and i gave up
shes hyperish asks
questions very animated
but real stupid
"huh? but wait"
even if it was just said
just so much determination visiable
she gets it later on
and stuff that was taught a while ago
she doesnt know
not fair thou shes wining
she in sports brags about it enough
i'm closer to awesomedry
shes taller well thats not hard
shes a bit pushy
acts all modest but knows
shes won it all by beating the freak [me ; ; ]
and i have nothing
just zane
used to be top notch!
shes won at least 3 fields out of 7
or more i havent checked
just so weird i used to
eat up competetion
well guess i lost this time
now its just crap
only have zane and hope
i really wanna die i wished that i
regretful wish that i didnt say i promised
maybe it'd be better
mum would get dumped finally by dad
mum finds some stupid
but at least faithful little mexi
and zane ,he'd be with me
master? well seem that forgetting wont be hard
never on? well that wont bother much
some friends just mock
even though i dun care much
if they went deeper to really checked
oh well huh? another lost
grief for maybe a day or two
then onward
well least on that standpoint
mocking jerk tall peoples
would stop even for that bit
[ i dunno i'm emo today ]
master went in on gaia but i think
maybe to open just the announcement
thou today i was gonna say it
i fell asleep while playing
woke at 8 fell at 7
went back to bed
and have just 1 hour till ten
i wonder if i got invited to anything
i turned it off thou
i hope i had
hmm yeah we came at 6 bad time
mean really dose it really take 1 hour to get food?
then unloading was a blah
and finally some food
visable bit much but thats ok
tomarrow i'm not even nervous just
kinda annoyied why bother?
take to drink milk like a drunk
live at home stupidly
or like get some junk and tie my neck off
or just keep going like a zombie
like it used to be
ifi could only fix this just fix it
zane asked if i was mad at master
then i asked him " are you mad at living?"
he said nu but that i seemed angry
well i was but not at kami sama
it was at myself i couldnt fix things
i couldnt prove people wrong when i really wanted to
zane asked " but hes avoiding you how can you not be?
i replyed to him now
because i'm in wuv and hes a friend as stupid as it sounds
[ i went wuv cause the L word is kinda hard to say ]
he asked: but but daeaaaa your sadddd thats not goooddd
i reply : i do many things that are sad this one just brings me down lots
he gose: but i dun like that!
i go: sorry want chocolate?
[share time and both get a bit better]
bed? well yeah i guess
oh i forget
this friday i have to get food
thats very late huh!?
i dunno
i have 5 mins?
i'mma just watch naruto vids
ok pop it
and stalkers excuse the emo moment
pop pop pop