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Can't say I'm feeling much better though. What can I say? I am too am victim of life! crying It got me while I wasn't looking.
My mom is going to live in another state for six months for her job. She's talking about leaving my father for good, and has also spoken about taking the kids with her because my father sent my ten year old brother champing in the mountains and then refused to let him take his cell and never told my mother this until she wanted to call him.
Add to the fact that mom's job is really stressful right now. I can't go into detail, but she's probably going to have to go into court for something, and it's adversly affected her job enviorment.
Dad, on the other hand, is in really poor health. His blood pressure is up, his memory is going down hill, he's partially deaf because of an accident at work, and he's cranky as all get out any more.
Right now BOTH of my parents are fighting all the time, mom has a habit of throwing things. The siblings (when they're not being spoiled) are distraught. I'm worried about the littliest the most though, because he's just going to start middle school and he's... well, he's the nerd. Just like I was. I'm sure a lot of you know that place, so this really isn't going to do him any good.
We can't talk to ANY relatives any more because my mother's family is abusive (in the worst sort of ways) to every one of us, and I just found out that my father's family has told -them- everything I shared. And then they turned around and said they had a right to know. Talk about backstabbing, huh?
My foster brother is in trouble (again). This time he's been caught stealing. This is added to a list of things he's done, which have taken my parents to thinking that maybe he'd be better off back in a group home... and I think everyone ELSE knows that's a bad idea.
My cat, who was pregnant, nearly died and lost all of her kittens. She now has to wear a cone 'cause she wont stop taking her stitches out.
My three little sisters are...well... trouble. The eldest (soon to turn sixteen) is going through that stage where everyone but her is wrong. The second eldest (fourteen) was caught drinking in the park and arrested. This is a serious deal because she's my foster sister and they could take her for this. The youngest (turning thirteen, same day as I turn twenty)is spoiled, and has decided she can be rude and spiteful to me, which does NOT help anything. She's one of the popular jocks at school, so I can't even identify with her, even though we're so alike. It's amazing what a difference having blonde hair and no glasses can make... but she's very intelligent, which makes it worse in a lot of ways.
One of my best friends has become a virtual stranger to me... he's been gone so long, and changed so much that I don't really know who he is any more, and I have a hard time feeling comfortable with him... he's so angry about a lot of things that everyone close to him has become a real target, but he wont take any advice to get better. Not to mention he told me my life was "drama", which is true, but really hurtful. -I'm- not the one doing any of this!
As for me... I'm ill, and looking for a job, but with the small town job pool and the slowing economy, it's not going so well, and until I get a job I'm stuck at home every day dealing with this... with no escape, since all of my friends have moved away or gone really down hill. My two BEST friends live litterally across the country from me, three hours time difference... you can imagine the problems that causes, so I'm feeling a tad lonely a lot of the time. I has a really good bestfriend though, and she's helping me through all of this, even if I down play it a lot.
Things have to look up though, right?
Did I mention my internet connection is a flight capable female dog who has no father?
Yeaaah...
 Themascura · Tue Jun 17, 2008 @ 06:14am · 3 Comments |
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