THESE ARE THE REST OF MY POEMS.
i am starting to see these things clearly.not through other peoples eyes but threw mine.why does he push me away when all i want to do is stay.i wanna get closer.but all i do is drift away.farther an farther away from reality.till i am in a deep hole i cant dig out of.its starting to get deeper i cant breath no longer.i am gasping for breath.
but i cant grasp ahold of it.i am drifting farther an farther away.untill i can see light no longer.i cant see out of this hole i am in.ive drifted away froma ll reality.tryin to swim back gets so hard that i give up.the current keeps on pulling me away.always pushing me back farther and farther.till i am nothing.nothing but dirt.noone can hear my cries cus of all my lies.i gasp for help.screamin till i can scream no more.i cant stand it.i nolonger can breath.the last words i say is help me.till im nolonger here.im gone forever.i can never come back.ive drifted away from all reality.gone forever.
i sttart to dig deeper till i feel that oozing blood that iver been longing for.i start cryin for who i am,an wat i do. i slit the other side till im addicted. that one ooze got me addicted.till i can nolonger stop.i cover the sratches like i cover my identity.i try fitting in but somhow i always screw up.im always an outcast.i can nolonger see me but someone else. i dont even no this person in the mirror.i see someone diffrent.someone new.i cry bllod as black as night.it oozes from my cheeks an into my mouth.that one taste gets me addicted.it sends me to a world i never knew.just that one frop got me addicted.it makes me wanna do it even more.just one more time i say just one more time.but that one drop makes me start agian.i cry for who i am for what i do.just that one drop.i say over an over agian.jjust one more time.that one drop got me addicted.it caused it all.just that one drop.
i finally feel what everyone is talkin back.you know that feeling when it is quite an everything is right, at peace.that one in a life time feeling.this so called feeling happiness.i finally feel it where nothing is wrong and everything is right.why cant life be like this?HAPPY.
why cant people except us for who we are anymore?we always get made fun of.always turned against each other by rude,nasty people.then we get called wannabes.why would you wanna be a hippricritical b***h, who knows?so if you wont believe your true friends,then go be with your new hippricritical b***h friend!
you said you loved me.you said you would never leave.now your gone.an noone can find you. you left me here to die in hell.well i guess you did not think of how i would feel or how anyone would feel.i know your not dead but wat culdve or wat wuldve happened scares me.i dont even want to think aobut this.how i thought you wre so true.but all i heard was i dont care.and the one question that tortures me is why did you say i luv you when you never ment it.why did u lie to me.well i guess you never really meant it.you just didnt love me. why cant i see.that we culd never be.i will always have you in my heart. i love you.
i feel so empty inside.like everything i knew everything i saw has dispeared.what is this feeling i feel?is it love?is it hatred?i just cant tell anymore.can you please tell me?please just let me know.WHAT IS THIS FEELING?
i just want to runaway.an leave everything behind.forget my past an start a new future.to be around new people who love me not ones that make me a fool out of me.i wish just for one week just one week.they would leave me alone and let me be in peace.i want everyone to just leave me alone. WHY CANT THEY LET ME BE!?
 xBreekachux · Thu Jul 10, 2008 @ 04:20am · 0 Comments |
