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Cut
I've been cutting for 4 days straight I just stole back my two razors that I gave my mom last year to keep me from cutting. Plus the one I kept secret from her so I've got 3 razors. I would call someone when I'm about to or thinking about cutting, but I just can't because I know I'm going to break down crying. I hate crying in front of people or even on the phone it makes me feel so vulnerable and weak. I've broken many promies and few contracts not to cut. I'm going to high school in a week I think when that happens all hell will break loose either two things will happen. One: I go insane and try to kill people or the people I get in a fight with(don't know how to fight but I know how to kill grab the nearest object near and beat/stab them with it or bite them rip of fragments of their skin hear them scream and cry that might turn me into a sadist or my last option ******** choke their a** even if I don't know how trust I'm gonna learn then and there anger can make anybody do crazy s**t) or two: cut my arms,boobs,and thighs to shreds, which ever happens first. In my option option two will happen first, and option one will happen when someone pushes me to edge so I just snap or if I'm getting my a** kicked in a fight. I really don't wanna get into a fight cause for one I don't want to get hurt and for two I don't want kill the person. Cause in my opion I will try to ******** kill you not fight you. KILL YOU! If I can't suceed in killing then I'm gonna try to bite the ******** out of you or rip your ear off or some part of your skin. Sorry for the ramble.
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