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I'm not sure if I'm the only one who gets this, or to this extreme, but I'm really having an episode of 'RUN AWAY!!!' right now.

It happens occasionally, when for some reason I just get the sudden urge to drop everything and leave. To just run as fast as I can, as far as I can and never look back. Every fibre of my being is screaming 'Run!!! Get out!!! Leave!!! Vanish!!! Scat!!! RUN THE ******** AWAY!!!' and its really tough not to listen. This mood usually comes with the strong desire to cut all ties and just start over; to exist completely on my own

There's usually two reasons why I start feeling like this:
1) I feel smothered. Something/someone is making me so crazy that I feel like I have to go far away just to be able to breathe and to think. More than anything I want to get away and just be by myself somewhere that they aren't.

2) Boredom. The place I am is so familiar to me that I've done everything. I'm so bored out of my mind that I feel like I'll go crazy if I don't get out and DO something. I just want to be somewhere else.


I guess it's like an extreme claustrophobia caused by people and places, rather than small places.

Ug. I just want to get out of here. If it wasn't so late, I'd be going for a run (which usually burns up the anxiety). I can't sit still, I can't talk to people without wanting to physically push them away and everything irritates me. I guess it's sort of like a wanderlust sort of thing... if I were a bajillionaire, I'd be hopping onto my private jet right now, and flying off to some small, remote place.

I guess it could be the fact that high school is looming once again. HS is just full of smothering people and boredom and argh why is it not over?!