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do u ever just want to hide from the world cause everyone needs u all the time? i do i have two sisters and i always have to watch them when i'm at hom...its like do this can u watch jay-jay...taylor needs help with her homework and i'm trying to get supper started...or its like can u give jay jay a bath...i'm doing something right now...like man i'm not there mother and my dad he just sits there looking at me well i give jayjay a bath help taylor do her homework and then oh my mom didnt get supper started so it most likely me whos doing that...i try to go out with friends but then theres the when u going home u have to watch the kidz when we go out for coffee i dont want to bring them... stare i didnt go with friends for a long time at least about three months already and the last time i went with a friends it was for a school event how much fun...we went to the school finials together... gonk so yeah then i try to go for a run i have to bring taylor with me...try to go to the park oh jayjay wants to go to try to sneak outside taylor and jayjay r right behind me...oh i'm bring to think they where my children which they airnt there r my half sisters...oh i dont no what my mother is doing to me...i had my life like this since i was 10 and a half years old when taylor came into the family...what they think i'm going to have chilren this soon well i aint and if this keeps up i dont no if i want any i had to many years with my sisters i could just say hell with it...well i do want them in the future but i dont want to raise any right now i want to life and enjoy life i dont even no what it feels like to be by myself anymore...i was once a child who well played and though the world of the jungles and trucks and cars now it playing dolls with small children i didnt even do that when i was small i learnt how to play on my own and now look at the other children they cant play by themselves taylor does though when u dont want her to...thats when i had enough of jayjay she wants to play by herself she gets right in there and plays for to second until i think taylor and jayjay will play she runs off and plays god sometimes i hate that child...she was spoiled right from the beginning...she got everything she wanted and now look...though i was raised differentally from them they had two parents i only had one my mother...single parent and not much money to go around though now we have enough and they get spoiled where i have to get a job and buy the things i want though my school and some things r still covered under my parents...what i really dont like is when my sisters try to claim my dog...hes mine and he will always be mine i got the lisence,food, i take him places share a room with him and cuddle and love him they just want him to show off to there friends and say they have a dog like everyone else...they will love him somewhat but when the time comes to get food or more toys cause he destroyed them they back off and say he aint my dog its like that when its taylors turn to clean up the messes or give him a bath she dont like that when it comes though i love giving iggy a bath u and him get a bath at the same time though i will say his my dog for better or for worst cause in the end he will always be my babyboy. heart