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Well I'm in a huge arguement about something that doesn't exist. And am I pissy about it. SOrry love, I might just block ya. You know who you are. If you don't, jsut read our past messages and ask yerself, "did she ever reply back?" Then think about it. Will I? I'm sick of this s**t. I'm sorry I ever expressed my feelings. I knew this s**t was bound to happen. I knew I would end up quitting gaia for a month or two.. I am seriously thinking about it. I'll gives those I want to stay in contact with my e-mail, of course. But it doesn't really matter. Well here's my usual poem.

HOt tears stream my cheeks
ANd life slowly leaks
ANd slowly I am weak
Just live with out me
I feel pain
I feel hate
But I still long to find it
What am I missing
What am I lacking
Is it true, who I am
Or am I a lie
Like everything you told me
Like everything you are
How can I live with myself
When I know you aren't here
How can I live in all this fear
Its finally coming to an end
I finally see the dark
Its calling me
Beckoning me
And it will have me
I leave you and your lies
I leave you with your love
Just remember, I'm the best
That'll never have
That I'm gone forever
That I am no longer at your side
So my dear boy, listen closely
For one last time
I admit I once loved you
But I have found my love once more
The darkness
Come my love, let's go
I'm back, and time to reek havoc once more

Well I'm off. To leave off on a better note...I am happy again. With the darkness at my side andmy eyes on the goal. Well I have a therapist appointment tomorrow,wish me luck