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In the nothingness:

The nothingness surpriseingly has everything. But if u have never been to the nothingness exsplaining it is pointless. It’s the wire thin line between heaven and hell, the white noise sound in the hollow words of a prayer, its the tears that never fall, and all the ones that do, It’s the meaninglessness of worlds, and the imortants of being heard. It’s the everything, and of course the nothing.
Were I live is the nothingness, nothing but white noise and hiss of intisipation ringing in my ears. Nothing, but nothing is all that I see. My soul is trapped, my mind is lost, and my heart has died so long ago. But still the veg rememberace of the world outside of the nothing still sparks a light in the detached wilting brain of mine. And for a moment I remember sun light and the nothingness fades. But just as soon as the memory returns it departs and once again the nothinness sworms around me and I’m gone from the existence of the world outside my small icolated nothingness.
When I was outside the white walls of nothing, things were different. That was when I talked and moved, and lived, and ran at the intensity and rhythm of my own emotionly rampageing heart. That was when I was alive.

Before:

I’m standing in front of the windows, and the warmth inside materializes into a orange glow and shines before like the gates of heaven is lost some were inside the walls that sparate me from the warmth. I remember when I was young watching cartoons, and the stray cartoon dog would peer into the windows of the homes he was deprived of, suddenly I was the dog. And had no recollection of becomeing a dog. It had all heppend so quieckly the apprehension of it was a lost couse. As my fingers start turning purple I tuck them into the my pockets which offer little satifaction to the fost bite on my skin for the wind tars right through the thin material of my hoodie.
“Sage, I’m freezeing my nips off out her.” MY friends tells me agressivley, right as his fist lands in the middle of my spine. I stumble forward, only to catch myself and shoot him a dirty look. Hes not so thretony now that his jaw is trembleing and his teeth are clattering.