A couple of weeks ago,Teresa,Anais,Desiree,and I went to the movies.It was November 22,and we went to go watch Twilight.Teresa and me stayed at Anais's house for the night (Dez couldn't because she had already stayed with Tere the night before).While we were there we went to the kitchen to get a midnight snack (It was already 12:30 xd ). We sat around Ana's table discussing things while I drank hot chocolate and they drank tea.We sat there and I bagan to picture us doing that when we got to college.I found it funny and comforting that I wouldn't have to spend time away from each other.I also felt a little alone.Ana and Tere both want to be vets and will more than likely have classes together.While I plan to be an author and will take other classes....
Anyway,while we talked,we started talking about our personalities.They both brought up the fact that I'm very thinkitive.I never really thought I was till that moment.They mentioned that because of that,I could never really tell if I wanted to break up with Cody.Anais kept telling me,that it was also the reason why I could never tell if I really loved him or not.I kinda got annoyed because Anais has the tendency to remind me of my mistakes with him.Which is why I don't usually talk about him with her.
Now,I'm so very confused about my feelings for everything.Especially feelings for other people.A few of my friends and by that I mean Anais knows that I have a crush on a girl friend of mine.Hopefully it doesn't last long because then it will be akward to be with her...And then with Cody....I don't even know if I loved him like I used to.I guess the time awa from each other that his mom wanted is actually working.I thought I would love him more,but I guess not.I'm guessing it's because I feel that he is lying to me,and that he hasn't really changed like he said.And now I know he didn't.Thanks to Dez for proving to me that he didn't.I hate the fact that I believed in him!Now I don't know what to think.It's horrible,maybe if I get to see him again will I be able to know how I truly feel about him...But in the mean time,I just want the time left until he returns to be the best time in my whole life.
Well,I must go.I'm a bird!!!GOOOOOOOOOODBYYYYYYYYYEEEEEE!!!! blaugh
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"If you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart one believes unto righteousness, and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation."
Romans 10:9-10
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"If you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart one believes unto righteousness, and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation."
Romans 10:9-10
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but hmm i see, hmm...
maybe we can talk of this better soon?