So I'm experiencing HELL. Not just me, but my fellow batch mates as well. I know some of them, like me, couldn't wait until this year ends for us to find where we really belong. And thinking this makes me feel pressured, for I don't think that I have seen the place where I really belong. I have found it once, but it was long gone since those "guys" came. It's just that, it seems that I can't come to the place I was thinking even if I know that it's really the right location for me to continue educating myself.
In this kind of time, you'll never know what would happen every step you take. And you can't even trust anyone so much for they could reveal to those "guys" what your plans are. Even if those things gives me a hard time, I'm happy that I have my batch mates with me. For even we were bit apart from each other, I could see that the bond made between ourselves was not that completely destroyed. And I'm hoping that the time left for us to enjoy with each other is not going to be wasted and be used to make our relationships with each other stronger.
As I remember the memories I've shared with my batch mates for almost two years now, I could say that many changes happened already which helped on the formation of our personalities and changed us to what we are now. I could see that each and every one of us held on to continue our life even we were experiencing hell. And even those changes happened to our "heaven" were the cause to make us stay stronger in this time where we need to believe in ourselves more. For losing your second family would hurt you so much for a long period of time.
Back to the reality, I was thinking back the time left for me to decide whether to pursue or not the plan of mine on finding the place where I would know more, learn more. Where I could really enjoy the freedom that was taken from us a long time ago. A thought came to me: I must continue to pursue my dreams on achieving what I think is impossible for me; and stay strong and keep believing that I would achieve same as what our batch did to stay happy and strong on this time.
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I would also like post a URL of a video featuring our batch now:
batch six :]
~ fin.
