In spite of everything that has happened in my life lately...
I'm doing surprisingly well.
There are a few things in my life that are just going right.
I have been thinking about what school I am going to go to when the baby daddy gets back from Iraq....
See.... He said he is going to take the baby for a few years so that I can go to school and that when I am done with school we will share custody.
Anyway... I was trying the think of the place that will get me the furthest from my family... (mom, sister, etc.) so that I will be able to concentrate better.
I found out that the University of Seattle has a pretty decent Criminal Justice program. So I think I will try to go to a community college until he gets back and then when he takes the baby I will move to Washington and try out the University of Seattle.
So yeah... life is just good.
I have made a few friends lately and yeah they might be online friends and I can't just go chill or anything... but at least my life is turning around and I am finally starting to have my own life instead of living in the shadow of my sister or under the grasp of a man. It really is great.
I just can't stress enough how ******** happy I am right now. I finally get to be me! YEY! lol But anyway... I'm almost always on and I am always bored! So just PM me.. we'll talk! ;p
The song I am listening to right now...
My Confession-Otep
... my confession
because i'm diluted
&
perfectly flawed
i shall
live by passion
&
not by law
and i'm
insecure ...
i need aggression
to
feed the spiders
of perception
and i'm
supposed to be strong
& have
all the answers
a
cannibal
in the
new church of cancer
but i'm
nothing special
i'm not unique
i have
many secrets
& i
eat the weak
and i'm
at an end
i'm at an end .....
and there's ...
NO WAY OUT!!
[chorus]
i need to find my sanctuary
..... someplace safe
gotta get this outta me
..... this is my escape
II.
and i
think about it
all the time
i'm
volatile
&
afraid to cry
but i'm
still not comfortable
in my skin
and the
anesthetics slowly
wearing thin
& i
need to talk to
someone new
i need a different
latitude
& i'm
in this void
all alone!
feeling needy
... hungry to grow
but i'm
suffocating
-- can't come down
and .... no ....
THERE'S NO WAY OUT!!!
[chorus]
i need to find my sanctuary
.... someplace safe
gotta get this outta me!
.... THIS IS MY ESCAPE!!!
--- all i see is sadness
all i see is sadness ....
what's left?
-- this will teach them.
this will teach them,
......you've got to......
push.
Push.
PUSH....
YOUR WAY OUT!!!
FOLLOW ME!
FOLLOW ME!
THIS IS YOUR WAY OUT!!
........you are not alone
- this is where i hide my power
- this is where i become free
- this is where i take control
- and slowly choke your fantasies
- i want to know my day is coming
- see my enemies be punished
- shed my skin again
- this will be my best revenge!!
SHED MY SKIN AGAIN
THIS WILL BE MY BEST REVENGE!
My Confession-Otep
... my confession
because i'm diluted
&
perfectly flawed
i shall
live by passion
&
not by law
and i'm
insecure ...
i need aggression
to
feed the spiders
of perception
and i'm
supposed to be strong
& have
all the answers
a
cannibal
in the
new church of cancer
but i'm
nothing special
i'm not unique
i have
many secrets
& i
eat the weak
and i'm
at an end
i'm at an end .....
and there's ...
NO WAY OUT!!
[chorus]
i need to find my sanctuary
..... someplace safe
gotta get this outta me
..... this is my escape
II.
and i
think about it
all the time
i'm
volatile
&
afraid to cry
but i'm
still not comfortable
in my skin
and the
anesthetics slowly
wearing thin
& i
need to talk to
someone new
i need a different
latitude
& i'm
in this void
all alone!
feeling needy
... hungry to grow
but i'm
suffocating
-- can't come down
and .... no ....
THERE'S NO WAY OUT!!!
[chorus]
i need to find my sanctuary
.... someplace safe
gotta get this outta me!
.... THIS IS MY ESCAPE!!!
--- all i see is sadness
all i see is sadness ....
what's left?
-- this will teach them.
this will teach them,
......you've got to......
push.
Push.
PUSH....
YOUR WAY OUT!!!
FOLLOW ME!
FOLLOW ME!
THIS IS YOUR WAY OUT!!
........you are not alone
- this is where i hide my power
- this is where i become free
- this is where i take control
- and slowly choke your fantasies
- i want to know my day is coming
- see my enemies be punished
- shed my skin again
- this will be my best revenge!!
SHED MY SKIN AGAIN
THIS WILL BE MY BEST REVENGE!
