Where to begin...this place is such a strange, very strange world. The sun never shines, forever this place is shrouded in darkness the only light coming from the heart shaped moon in the dark sky. Ah...Kingdom Hearts, how often have I heard the other members speak of it? Too many to count I assure you, but that would be another story in its self. A journey has begun and I'm not sure the outcome yet. The story is beginning to unfold, and the characters are starting to announce their arrivals, but who is the 'hero' and who is the 'villain'? I've asked myself that question so many times since my arrival and to be honest....I don't have an answer. For how does one define such characters in a story such as this?
You see, I've discovered that unlike the stories that we so often read, fiction or nonfiction, doesn't matter. There has always been a 'hero' and a 'villain'....however, I've realized that we only see these titles fitting of certain characters because we're taking the story from the author's point of view.
So in our own foolishness-
-we lose our freedom to see the truth.
Now that I've gotten that thought out of the way, what more is there to write....? Ah, yes I remember, I've learned that I am to be the apprentice of Number VI, Zexion, the Cloaked Schemer. I had wanted to make a good first impression but, erm...let's just say that didn't turn out the way I had planned. Xemnas, the Superior, failed to mention that my Instructor would be a stuck-up, self centered, social skill lacking, jerk....scratch that. Let's try this again; that my Instructor would be a royal pain, reclusive, mysterious, plotting, completely baffling teenage boy! To think, my Instructor is only two years older than myself...or by appearances he can't be much older than that I suppose. Anyway, more on him and how much he infuriates/confuses me later neh?
I. Nobody- the term for the being in which Xemnas claims all members of Organization XIII are. Apparently Nobodies lack a 'heart', though it seems the term lacking a heart means emotionally as well as dealing with lack of blood. How do I know this? I got the unique chance to watch some of the other Apprentices practicing, and when one of them got injured the wound did not bleed blood...but instead a strange dark mist type substance leaked out for a short amount of time before the wound went back to normal.
II. Organization XIII- a group formed by Xemnas and the next five numbers II-VI. Apparently they once were a group of apprentices who worked for a king. They researched the Heartlesses, or Neoshadows as some of them have called the odd black creatures. After losing their hearts to these creatures, and they awoke as Nobodies Organization XIII began to be formed...though it wasn't complete until the 'last' Nobody, Number XIII, Roxas, was added to it.
Original members included- Xemnas, Xigbar, Xaldin, Vexen, Lexaeus, Zexion, Saix, Axel, Demyx, Luxord, Marluxia, Larxene, and Roxas. Now those thirteen members are our Instructors....I'm afraid I don't know all of the other apprentices yet. I only know the names of the Instructors because I did some research in the castle library. -side note: the castle library is huge and my newest haven in this place.
III. Heartlesses-and-Lesser Nobodies- odd creatures....what can I say? Heartlesses apparently steal hearts, they're black and tend to have golden eyes....there is a grand variety of states and forms for these beings. They are supposedly the shells created from a person's heart and soul...I think. Lesser Nobodies I'm not even sure, apparently they are the shells or bodies of people who have had their hearts stolen, however they seem less...powerful? Than we of the Organization...I don't know how to explain it but, I think they're afraid of me. .-.;
-....and I don't know what else to write....I feel so exhausted these days. I'm constantly having to think on my toes, always dodging attacks gone hay-wire by the apprentices and Instructors alike, always having to come up with some quick reply to my Instructor's ever questioning gaze...sometimes I expect he's just going to blurt out that he knows my secret...but then he just goes about the day as if nothing has changed so perhaps he doesn't know yet. And of course, keeping my secret a secret....I truly wish I could just tell everyone....but I'm not sure how they would react......and frankly I'm not sure I want to. So for now I'll endure all of this, there is always some light mixed in with the darkness, maybe I'll find it, neh?
For now...I'll let sleep consume me...in three hours I must rise so Ill be on time for my next training session. I've heard the other apprentices talk feverishly about their practices, I'm slightly envious. Most all of them already know how to: summon their weapon, create darkness portals, slightly use their element, and are treated with slight respect by their Instructors. What part of that have I gotten so far? Well let's see I already know how to: summon their weapon, create darkness portals, slightly use their element, and are treated with slight respect by their Instructors.
...apparently I've got a long way to go....I'm off to bed...I don't want to think about any of this anymore, I'll write more when I'm not dying on the inside.
Aravwa-
Elise
Elise
