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Hey y'all, it is 8:00am and I am eating a Cadbury Cream egg (horrible I know... but sooo good) and it has been a long time since I have jounalized...I'm still not sure if Journalize is a word...so with that I welcome you to "Official Make Journalize A Word" Ceremony. Bam That's done. So a lot has happened since I last wrote to you and at the same time nothing has happened...weird eh? The 'a lot' portion of my recent monthes is more on a personal basis just trying to figure out what to do with the rest of my life. I would like to go to University but to be totally honest I don;t think I am smart enough and that isn't me being an attention whore I think it is fact I have always been a 70 - 80% student (not sure how that translates into A B C's) and I don;t think that is strong enough to get any where in Uni... at least not to the point where I can throw around the title of Uni graduate. I had a teacher in highschool who has given me (well he said it to the class) some of the best advice and I consider him a rather brilliant man and will not quote him because I don't remember the exact words but what he said is that as we grow up we are lied to, we are told that no matter what we want to do we can do it if we put our mind to it, we can be anything we want but the simple fact is that isn't true, you cannot always be what you want no matter how much mind you put into it or how hard you try. That is why I am sure I would fail at university and I am not sure I want to go through all of that anyway it seems ever so stressfull (but I have been told other wise). So that leaves me with the big question...what am I going to do with my life? A big desire of mine is to become a chef it has been for a very long time, I have always wanted to do something where I can impact the lives of other and make them happy, becomming a chef may not impact lives so much but I think it would make people happy and I am ok with that maybe I am not meant to impact lives. I have also thought about going into advertising, thisuffed outseems like a fun and challenging field where my off beat nature would be encouraged and not snuffed out. I think Cheffery might be the winner... who knows, I'll Keep you posted. Are any of you at this point in your life...are you having these same issues?

Now on to something a little more fun. Another thing I was thinking of doing before returning to 'life' is to travel a little bit, I mean when wil I have the chance to again, I'll go to school and or get a job meet someone, knock her up long before either of us are ready and then be stuck at home until this b*****d child goes to school... or sits at home wondering what to do with his/ her life. I have always wanted to go to Europe and back pack a little bit. I don;t see this actually happen because of my lack of follow through but it would be awesome if I did. I think I would learn a lot, see a lot, lose a lot, and teach the world that Canadians don't live in igloos or say 'aboot'... one of my life goals. But again who knows.

Let us move on to... Grey's Anatomy... Oh my friggen god, I have been liveing under a rock. I have never watched this show, I have always heard good thing but just never watched it and then one day I picked up the first season...and holy s**t, Sooo good, it's like "hey, Happy ******** you...and have some Syph" I love it. This is gonna go right up there with Buffy and Friends. If you have never seen it, go rent it or buy it right now...right this very second...or after you finish reading this...whatever....Any way for a second this show made me want to be a doctor...eeeshk could you imagine, I gag watching fear factor, i think it had something to do with all the Drama and sleeping with nurses...maybe a little Syph sweatdrop

As you can see I am a little all over the place when I write these things. Let my tell you my journalizing processe: I know the night before waht I want to right about and I lay in bed trying to figure out the best way to put it so as not to offend anyone and some quippy remarks, I never write anything down but I should, becuase once I fall asleep it all disapears. So I wake up in the morning knowing that I want to do this and I remember bit a pieces of the night before but nothing big. I sit down and begin to pull stuff out of my head and type them into the interweb. that is why my journal are all over the place and random. That's another reason for me not to go to university... I lack focus

On to something a little different...my love life heart . There is a lassy that I work with and we flirt like crazy...CRAZY, and she has man issues, her man likes men (i think so anyway) and he is ignoring her and our flirting has increased 10 fold. But to be honest, as I always am, I think I am just in this for the....physical? aspect of a relationship and I think she want a proposal...maybe not that extreme, but i think she wants some depth...would you act upon this?.... life can be ever so confusing, you'd think all these issues would dry up...but no!!

hmmm...what next...hmmm? ah! I just seen 'My Bloody Valentine 3D' not a great movie but it had awesome gore....and it was 3D (highlight the white)my fave part would have to be the naked chick running around with the gun...and the midget slaughter scene, not that I have anything agains the little people, i just enjoyed it. I do love horror movies, I do love the adrenaline spikes you get watching them and I love being scared, although I think I am so desencetized by these now that I don't get scared to often sad .I am also wicked psyched for the new 'Friday the thirteenth' but I shall rant about that in a later entry

MUSIC

I am sure i missed a shite load of stuff I wanted to say and I congradulate you if you made it this far...I am long winded eh? Here are som music reviews:


Kings of Leon - Only By the Night

I friggin love this album, they have been around for quite some time and this is my first foray into their music and it is beautifull 90's, it is what I think rock music should be and the lead singers voice is magical, beautiful and gritty...pure vocal sex and he is loving it. Some of my fave songs on the album are: 'Crawl', 'Sex on fire', and 'Use somebody'. all of which can be found on my profile
5/5


JP Hoe - Dear John Letters

I love this guy, my first time hearing him was opening live for Jann Arden and he is blood brilliant. He has this indie/folk/rockabilly/pop/accoustic amazing sound. Sadly I have no samples on my profile but if you can find 'Sing me a Song" it is my favorite song he sings
5/5

SOOO I think I rambled on far to long, I hope you enjoyed, I will try to post more often, that is a promise
Thanks again for reading
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