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You wonder what I'm doing. I can't tell you. It may not be fair of me to not tell you, but it works either way. I'll feel the guilt, and you won't even need to know it.

It happens ever day. It comes to mind every minute I'm alone. It is like a pestering bug bite. It is like that itch you know you just can't scratch otherwise you'll irritate it. I don't want to irritate this thought beyond words. If I do, it will surely give me pictures. I don't need that.

If I could say one thing, I wouldn't be able to without saying another. My thoughts are all jumbled, never coming to form a complete idea without a few things that are just a bit off topic. That's just the way my mind works.

If I didn't have my lover... If I didn't have my very few close friends... I think I would have done myself in a long time ago because I'm just not strong enough to go on with this life by myself. So... To my lover, Keiwaun, and to my close friends, Mary, Stefy, and Kiro, thanks so much. You all keep me grounded to this life, this age, this world. I love you all very much and would be sad if I ever lost any of you.