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I'm super pissed right now, and I’m going to try and make this as short as possible. :’[
I'm talking to this guy that I’ve known for YEARS and we’ve been close friends. So anyways, I’m just talking to this guy, but not really dating, not really my boyfriend and such, but I can't help but feel a little jealous and angry. He says he likes me but I don't feel like he does. gonk He describes his type of girl something totally opposite from me. :’[
He says he doesn't wants to ask me out because he wants me to be more independent, since I don't have a car, license, or a job. D:< The job part isn't my fault, I've applied EVERYWHERE. But since our economy is bad, no one seems to be hiring anyone. :'[
But whatever, he says he wants to help me be more independent so yeah, he took me out to look for a job, I hung out at his house twice and he wants to take me to the cheese cake factory since I love cheesecake, XD and he's also trying to help me stay off cigarettes. :'[ It's hard, when you're depressed and angry. D:< Jeez, I sound like a wreck. :'[
Anyways, we act like a couple, we kiss and fool around and stuff, mainly cause of me. :'[ I'm the type that needs sex and stuff. He's the type that wants to wait for "the one." He has morals and I don't. gonk I sometimes feel like I am a slut, but I only feel that way cause I fool around and stuff, but I love to fool around, if I don't then I wouldn't feel right. :'[ I need to feel good, horny, wet and all when I' am alone with a guy. :’[ I don't fool around with just anybody though. I still do have my dignity. Ever since I met him, he’s seen me to be a tease. :/ I can't blame him for thinking I am a slut or a tease. Even though I don't do the stuff I used to do back then, but he doesn’t see that, since I’m always fooling around with him. That makes me angry. D:<
The thing is that makes me jealous is that his ex girlfriend was coming over to his house with her brother. -_- Whatever, her bro is going but what if something happens? O.o I know he’s capable of doing something if some one fools with him. So I can’t really trust him. :/ I asked him if he would fool around, he only said “Hope not, whisper, whisper, I don’t think so. Hopefully she doesn’t try anything.” Gah, what should I think about that? Do I have the rights to be angry, jealous, depressed? GAH!!!
Help me, suggestions, advice.
What should I do about him?
What should I do about my sexuality?
Should I calm down with the sex, even though he’s a tease too? gonk
What should I say to him?
Should I just stop talking to him before I get hurt? :’[
Do I have the rights to be angry and jealous?
What should I really think about him saying that stuff about his ex? gonk
What if she kisses him, and he kisses back? gonk
I still have questions, but I have sooo many that I can’t think of all of them at the same time. :’[
 SynthetikXtasy · Mon Mar 02, 2009 @ 02:35am · 0 Comments |
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