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Iv never cried as hard as this.
I think its cause i kno whts gana happened.
Tht i keep trying to deny it in my head tht all of this is happening
My life is crashing down in front of me and i cant do neything about it
All these things just happen
No sign
Nothing.
In skool all i got was yelled at.
In every class.
Every single one.
Its about this whole stupid thing
Nd its hell.
I got sent dwn to the fukn Vice preince like 100 times about it too.
My best friend nd me are in the biggest fight.
Me and Carina have never gotten into a real fight.
Except for now.
And its whn i need her the most.
My and My mom are fuked up too.
Me nd my Uncle are fuked up.
Family in a fight.
And then...
theres..
Shamar
The one person
tht i care for the most
is letting me fall
I really needed him
Needed him there to be there for me
..always have i been there for him
Not one time
Evn whn we were in a fight
and something bad happened in his life
have i evr not been there for him.
Always wonderin if everythings ok
jus cause i kno whn somethings wrong
but whn somethings wrong with my life..
...nothing....
He says hes loosing feelings..
but is tht really his rite to say?
Im the one constantly always tryin to tlk to him.
Begging him to find a way to tlk to me
If he started feelin tht way then he should have found a way to tlk to me.
Have i not ALWAYS found a way to tlk to him?
Weekends
yea s**t im sorry
but am i still tlkin to him?
Yea.
Txting him outside cus i dnt get internet inside (g-par cheap)
Get soemone else's cell and txt him
Alwyas i had found a way to be there and make sure that i get to tlk to the one
person in my life that means more then life its self.
So Shamar.
Its been 9 months.
Tlk to me about it. Dnt be immature.
U kno wht im tlking about
The way u said it to..
No emotion
like i was tht easy to throw away or forget
I thought i meant more to u then that.
I nevr doubted it..
..until now..
Everything is always up to you.
You get to decided wht happens..
U kno the way i feel about this
..about you...
So tlk to me about it
Just do me tht please

More and more things jus keep pilling up
Im on top..
..nd im falling.....

and
theres
no
one
there
to
catch
me.

I hit the gournd
and i dnt kno wht to do.
Steer me in the right direction
Get me back on track.
Set my life stright
Because im doing a pretty shity job
with it rite now..