I guess I feel better...
Thanks for your support, Jblade. Who would have thought you and I would still be friends now, ne?
Its been so many years now, I don't think I have ever had a friend for such a long time...normally I forget them and they forget me and I move on in my life with no sense of purpous...
Though I only know you as a net friend, Tenshi (whom is Jblade to the ignorants who don't know her as such 4laugh ), your better than any of my friends IRL, and I am so curious to how life has been treating you. We haven't talked in age's and I don't even think I have the link to your site anymore...I miss the good old day's of RW RPin at Dawn-chans place...
::sigh::
Oh wow~guess what, my unsuspecting readers. Onii-san is still my friend. But now I am more confused than ever...nothing really makes sense anymore, and I am awaiting his reply to my extremly long PM to hopefully sort things out.
I think I will go to a college down south. All the people I know and adore live there like Tenshi and Kev and Onii-san and stuff...
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Kevin...is confusing the hell outta me. I really don't know what to do. I hate relationships so much but I'm always dieing inside to have one. I dunno, something about the thrill of someone caring for me just sets my heart aflame.
Everytime we have a problem its always 'So you don't love me anymore?'
I'm so sick of that...I always feel like I'm being sent on a guilt trip and I don't know what I am suppose to do. I can't get mad at him, 'cause we talk on the phone and he repeats what I say and the way he says it like...breaks my heart.
He's a nice guy. A guy who has been used and stuff by the girls he's like and hella abused (as I see it) and stuff...I mean, I just want to be right for em so he doesnt feel bad.
But I always end up feeling worse...
::sigh::
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I'm survivin'... Though I've learned one major thing: life is so unpredictable.
I have a livejournal now. Username is kyrinkibeth; (jblade was taken. xp ) But hey, right now even my LJ is sorta vague.
...college down South?
Where at down South? blaugh I feel special now. 4laugh
Hm, Kevin? Sounds like you just need to tell him and somehow make him believe that you'll always love him. I'm not saying you don't but... I know how that fear of rejection and loss goes- trust me, I've been on Kevin's proverbial side. (Except this was between me and my best friend.) It's just when you finally find someone/thing that you treasure to a point, you want to know you'll always have it. What had to be done (has to be done)- is to make him know that you'll always love him.
Possibly... send him a card/letter/homemade something that you can write on, and everytime he starts to ask that- tell him to look at that, doesn't it mean that he's special to you? That you care so much more about him than anyone else?
(As David says: "HOLY CRAP! I wrote too much..." Sorry Luma, it's a bit much for a comment, I know.)