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This past week I've been through some things that I just really havent been able to deal with. But I've gotten through it. This journal entry is for my amazing, understandable, loveable,caring,sweet,nice,sexy and soo much more, Fiance Talon Mallonee,
I've been a real jerk to you Talon and Im soo sorry..I feel so bad that I put all my anger and frustration on you and I wish I could take all the pain away from you. But its there and i've caused it. I no Im not perfect and I know your not perfect, But you choose to stay with me..even tho Im this jerk.and even when I cause you so much pain you insist on staying with me because you love me. I love you to. I need you and I dont have a future without you. No matter what you choose to do, Stay there, or come home, I promise I will wait for you no matter what.And you are right, we are going to have our arguements cuz every couple has them. Our fights may not be soo common but when we do fight they seem so brutal and heart breaking. But even tho I hurt you and you hurt me, We stay together. You put the pieces of my heart back together so quickly its like we have never fought before.
I can always trust you with things and even if I am confused or scared ..you are always there for me,when you can be. Its not your fault your so far away.
If you choose to stay, you will have a very bright future, a better education, a better life, better friends, and an altogether better life. I will never cease to exist in your life. I'll stay with you through every decision you make.. good or bad. I will support you through everything you do. Even if me and you are miles away.. I feel your touch at night, I hear your voice in my head, I feel as if Im with you all the time.
If you choose to come home,
You wont have a good education, You will have good friends though, you'll have me even if Im not much, but however Im not shure if you would have a better life.
It may hurt me to have to wait two years ( if the first choice is what you choose ) when you come home it will be that more intense.
I want you to have the most in life even if I cant be there with you or you here with me. live your life to make yourself happy not others.
These lyrics are for you..
" Your so close, Yet so far
Its tearing me apart,
What I will do to be there with you,
So close yet so far,
Its tearing me part what I will do
to be back with you
So promise, no matter how long it takes for me to get back to you, you'll wait for me,
And promise not matter how far you go
you'll come back to me. "
-So close yet so far-Hoobastank
I miss hearing your laughter, I miss seeing your face, Its tearing me apart.
I need you so much. You are my life and without you I feel dead. Sure I can hang out with my friends..and manupulate myself into thinking Im hapy but when I get home,
Each tear I cry is cried for you to come home,
Every forced laugh I've made is so u dont catch on to my sadness
every dream I dream should be and will be about you,
Every night when I go to bed I think of you and only you.
When Im alone and need someone to talk to, I call you
Because I know your there for me.
Im so sorry for everything I've done to hurt you and If i could take away all your pain I would, you have to tell me how.
I want you to come home to me so we can be together . Nomore worry no more pain, no more tears of sadness, jus me and you together for eternity..no twitch.. no other guys..jus me and u..forever.Come home to me.
I love you.
im here for u
 TehTechnoFairy · Fri Mar 27, 2009 @ 01:41am · 0 Comments |
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