Well, I'd like to keep my feelings here in this journal. There are sometimes that I wondered how was it like to die. What would happen after you die. And there are things that kept bugging my mind, if could there be a miracle to this world. Somehow those things are quite... Irrelevant. To me perhaps.
If there would be any chance for me to feel what it's like to be alone and never to be touched by anyone is somehow, a Curse. To feel like your an Outcast, or so they called a Bad Omen to people around you. I have felt such things in my life. And for some reason, every time it happens, I tend to almost give up and all my troubles went nothing at all.
But, there was always a something that makes me never surrender to this sadness. My friends, my family and loved ones. Giving me strength. Saying me things... They say, Why I forgive easily, and why I am easily forgiven. Because I accept things, from my wrong doings, and my sins in life.
I have ever thought that this world would never be given a chance to feel Hope. I was wrong, even is this world is in it's crisis. People never seem to mind that. As long as they can live. To the people who have died, fought to live in this world.
Now I truly understand, why He has created and made this world. And I perhaps, don't want to feel how to die. I want to live longer to the life I choose.
Well... That's it. That's how I feel. I'm too Emo, right? ;P
Elite Beat Agent X · Sun Apr 05, 2009 @ 10:31am · 0 Comments |