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You're sitting there wondering how the ******** did you manage to get a girl like the one you have. She's so perfect in your eyes and she makes you want to be a better person. You remember all the little things that made you fall for her like when she used to give you those special smiles, ones meant for only you. The way she used to look at you when she said your name. Her eyes, oh god how you love her eyes. You love every little thing about her and you know for a fact she's the one you want to be with for the rest of your life. You're staring at her while she's sleeping. You think to yourself “is this obsession?” . But then again you're thinking that's what love is, an obsession. You cant' be without her and you don't want to be with anyone other then her.

She's still sleeping and you're happy that she hasn't woken up. You love watching her sleep because you've always thought she was cute when she was sleeping. You stop yourself for a moment, she's always cute right? Sleeping or not. You stare at her sleeping form intently, watching how her chest rises and falls with every breath she takes. You can't help but hold your own breath. You're asking yourself how can anyone be this beautiful? Everything about her is beautiful to you. Other people can see her beauty as well, and it makes you so ******** jealous when someone flirts with her. You don't want her to look at other people, you want her eyes on you and you only. Why you ask? Because you're in love with her, duh. Plain and simple. You're madly, deeply, crazily, head over ******** heals in love with her. You want to always be by her side and keep those creeps away. You're the only one who can treat her the way she deserves to be treated, and you know that for a fact.

You're 16 people tell you, you don't know a thing about love they say. So what if you're 16 you tell yourself, you know how she makes you feel. You always want to be with her, you long to kiss her, you crave her touch, you need her warmth, you desire her in so many ways than one. If that isn't love then maybe you don't know what love is.

Her eyes are opening and you just realized that you were holding your breath. She's smiling at you and you can feel your heart racing and your cheeks turning red. All she had to do was smile and you're so nervous that you can't think properly. You're desperately wishing that she'll close her eyes and fall back asleep because you can't think of a word to say to her. Correction, you can think of what to say but you can't seem to make yourself say it. You've always been a confident girl, but she makes you like this. Like what you ask? She makes you feel like a regular person. You just realized how bad regular people have it.

“You okay?” She asks.

You can't say anything back, You're lips are sealed and you're telling yourself to say anything. Just ******** say something!

“You're beautiful.”

Oh wow, smooth you think.

You notice her grinning at you and you feel like hiding in a dark corner somewhere because you're so ******** embarrassed. She's sitting up and lifting her hand, placing it on your cheek. You notice how soft her hands are, and it makes your heart beat faster if possible. The contact of her hand against your skin makes you shiver.

You're always hearing from everyone that loving a person of the same gender is wrong. It's morally wrong and disgusting. You're supposed to fall in love with a guy, have children, grow old, and die together. You think to yourself “what's so bad about loving another girl?” She makes you a better person doesn't she? She makes you happy right? Isn't that the most important thing? Not the fact that she's a girl, but that she loves you back.

She's closing her eyes and leaning in and you're watching her lips get closer to your own. You feel like you and her are the only people in the world and this is exactly where you want to be for the rest of your life. Is this love so wrong?

Her lips are on your's and your heart soars.

If this is wrong then you don't want to be right.

I wrote this for Stephanie, I really love her and I want her to know that. Never take your love for granted people. :3

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