I'm in serious pain... its happening again... that pain..
am I falling??
hmph...
I can't really move right now.. it...it just hurts... i wanna cry, but I can't.. for the sake of one person... that's why i hate the breaks, being alone.. dealing with all the problems that life gives me, parents, brother... *covers head and ears and begins to drop to the ground* I don't want my other to come out!! it's still somewhere in my heart, it's starting to feed...but, only on me..
I wish to lock this "other" of me..the rage and sadness "other".. but why?
why can't I lock it up..if i try.. It'll just break out like always and goes berserk... I wanna.. ... I feel like, raging out.. I want to go berserk!!! I can't keep it in anymore!! If i go berserk, right now, I don't know when the real me will come back... scars... upon my arm again... *dreams*
kinokashi: where am I? *starts to look around* why can't I see?
"other": hmph...
kinokashi: who's that *scared*
other: I'm your other.. that pain you feel, where your heart is *laughs evily*
kinokashi: then, where am I? why can't I see??
other: oh, that? your locked away in your subconscious. and the reason you can't see is because your blind sighted right now. I'm taking over your body right now hehe.. You're in so much pain right now that I finaly had the energy to come out.
kinokashi: how? why?
other: feh, *runs up to kino, and grabs her heart*.. because, the pain his "other" is causing you... I know you can feel it.. you should let me handle it *evil grins* all his "other" is causing you is pain, heartbreak...sadness.. *laughter* i got out because I was feeding of him by you.. let me deal with this.
kinokashi: *begins to fall in a deep sleep* then, help...me....
* * *
other: *in reality* feh...
Aoi: heyy kino? you still there? ... Are, you okay?
other: *acts like kino* huh? umm, yeah...*sad expression*
kerozuki: ?? *looks* the bell rang, we have to go back to class. :].. c'mon Aio.. *smiles* bye kino! *leaves*
* * *
kino's thoughts: hey..other? what just happened?
other: *evil grins* He..kero, just left.
kino's thoughts: then, why am I crying?
other: *laughter* he didn't bother to give you a hug, nor did he even pay attention to you for this whole time...I..I think he starting not to love you
kino"s thoughts: b-but, he would never!
other: I know better.. now. shut up little girl, and sleep!
* * *
kiyomae: kino?? are you hungry??
neko-sensei: *touches forehead* you don't look so good... ):
kiyorii: .... Didn't you guys notice? kerozuki...he's isnt caring for her anymore
kairi: I knew it, they wouldn't last.. she wasn't good enough for llama boy anyways.
other: *whispers* leave me.. alone
kiyorii: hmm? you say something kino??
other: *glares* I said.. LEAVE ME ALONE!! *yells and runs away*
(everyone begins to chase her)
kairi: kino!! stop!
(the group gathers more people to chase her down and soon, they caught up and pin her down)
everyone: What's going on with you? your not acting like you did last year??
other: hurts... *evil grins with her eyes*
* * *
(another year pasts and now kino and her group has entered freshman year)
( during P.E)
kinokashi: *pants* I'm too tired....I can't make it! running is too much work...
kerozuki: don't worry, you can do it *smiles*
(as kinokashi runs the last "lap" around the cones, she collapses half way)
kinokashi: I can't move!!! I can't see!!! help me!!!! someone!!! *begins to cry*
(as she begins to cry, she feels someone holding her hand)
kinokashi: !!
kerozuki: It's me... don't worry! are you ok??
kinokashi:my legs.. i can't feel them!! I can't see!!!
kerozuki: don't worry, help is here to take you to the nurse
(every sound around her begins to fade and once again she is in her subconscious)
kinokashi: .. you?
other: yep
kinokashi: why now?
other: do you think he actually cared that you collapsed?
kinokashi: *feels a slight pain in her heart* ... I.. don't know...
* * *
(later in the year)
kerozuki: ... what's wrong????
kinokashi: hmmm, nothing... *looks down*
kerozuki: yes there is..
kinokashi: *hides face* ..kero-sama, do you have "others"?
kerozuki: *thinks* yeah, I do... you?
kinokashi: yeah..
kerozuki: It's a evil one, am I right?
kinokashi: yes.. *looks at hands*
kerozuki: I knew it..
kinokashi: how?
kerozuki: ... Let's just say that I know.
kinokashi: ..It's very strong.. somewhere deep, hidden in my heart. I can't keep it locked because if I try, it will always break free.. but something tells me that I should not lock it up..
kerozuki: That's not true.. it does get locked up, you just don't know it.
kinokashi: ??? how?
kerozuki: That lock.. is me. When you get mad, irritated, mad, or depressed, and you begin to attack someone..
kinokashi: When you grab my arms and put it in a hold?
kerozuki: exactly!.
kinokashi: But, it feeds..
kerozuki: How..
kinokashi: I don't wanna say..
kerozuki: neutral just tell me.
kinokashi: It, my "other", was feeding off you because of me.
kerozuki: How so?
kinokashi: *sighs* last year....I was depressed, but I always faked a smile through. no matter how painful.....Sama, remeber when I used to say, "It hurts where my heart is, like a bunch of arrows on fire are stabbing it"?
kerozuki: yea,
kinokashi: it was because... Last year, it felt like you were ignoring me.. Like you didn't care...
kerozuki: *looks down* kino, as I said, that I also have a "other"
kinokashi: *nods*
kerozuki: last year, that was my other.... But then i noticed how lonely you were, so I locked that evil "other"of mine... Was he causing you all that pain?
kinokashi: ....yes..
kerozuki: ... I'm so sorry.. *sad expression* please.. forgive me.
kinokashi: but-.. last year, It just seemed like you just didn't love me anymore-- like-- *gets cut off*
kerozuki: Don't say that!!! I will, and always love you...
kinokashi: *begins to cry*
kerozuki: so, please.. Forgive me.
kinokashi *cries* I will always forgive you.. you don't need.. to apologize if I will always forgive you! *cries harder*
kerozuki: *suddenly hugs and holds her within his grasp* Don't cry... *also begins to cry* I will never leave you, I will always protect you and will stay by your side.
so, don't say that I do not love you... I will always love you no matter what
kinokashi: *cries and doesn't stop* I love you sama.. please don't ever leave me..*hugs and grabs his sleeve*
kerozuki: *wipes her tears away* I promise... I won't... *touches kino's chin and kisses her lips*... I will never leave you...
~story from - Onigiri Odango -Tru dango life~
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