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The Dying Dreamer
By: [Etp.]


Your "forever" was too short
I dared to love and now you're gone
all the sacrifices and hardships turned to shams
and this farewell is hard as hell

So I'll drown in the music
and let it take me to another world
anywhere but here
I'd rather take reality face down right now

I can't shed the tears I wish to cry
this dead...empty feeling has taken over
my heart is torn asunder
and I cant seem to put the pieces back together

On those days I awoke to the false hope you gave me,
I cherished you every second, and now...to bear its end
the reigns on my heart grip tighter, as this once boiling sun
is now reduced to a fragile glass, on the edge of breaking

Perhaps I sinned
living my dream
twas too good to be true, damnit
I hate this fated mistake

I feel so empty without you
If you were going to take my heart
then why not everything else too?
I curse my demise, this emptiness
its devouring everything inside
Forced to wonder if the only way to live normally is to forget you,
how could I be such a fool?
At long last, my love for you burns in this crimson-clouded hate

The blank eyes in this mirror stare back at me
no intentions or desires reflected
As I gaze at your pictures,
I regain some warmth,
but your smile...it hurts
It was never for me, it never will be
The lie of a thousand sins scars me

Misconceived feelings
change to a sorrow
I'm buried deep under
and you continue to step on me

I've been broken beyond repair
even your voice may not be able to melt this frozen heart
It froze when I lost my reason
and I wonder if its still there
the fragile glass only left to be broken

The dying dreamer has no words to share of light
he resigns the hand he offered in his plight
Like a flower without his rain or his sun
the petals of his life fall one by one

"I love you" was always a lie
Said only for the comfort and trust
Trust only to be shattered in light of the truth
The truth of betrayal

And I'm overwhelmed with this cold embrace
just how brutal the world is
my thoughts meld into one
And I lose myself
It's zero degrees inside
but I'm still feeling the sorrow

Your "forever" was too short
I dared to love and now you're gone
all the sacrifices and hardships turned to shams
and this farewell...
heaven was but only for a moment,
So can someone please tell me
how long this hell will last

for now, good bye. my fatal mistake