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Standing in the rain
watching as clouds form showers
understanding my tears
falling to broken dreams beneath me
shattered apart
broken inside
screaming
running from the pain
day in and day out i run
cowardly running
never turning to face my problems
looking up into the sky now
letting the rain hit my face
soaking my hair
dripping down my clothes
every savored drop
never wanting to let go
standing here empty
nothing to see
grey with sorrow and fear
rain pours
the sky saddens
my heart opens
not knowing whats wrong with me
i break in pieces
the person i loved most shattered me
watching from a side
the lies that she says
a simple "I Love You"
said to another
not ever fearing this
unkowing what to do
crying in this rain
never showing my tears
never subsiding
sad and alone
i stand here
soaking my hair
crying my heart out
asking myself why i let her do this
breaking into a fever
vommiting
blood runs loose
i cant feel anything more
my body loses control
i fall over and over
i cant escape this pain
its swallowing me whole
broken and alone
no one here to sit beside me
no one to enjoy the rain with me...
i am alone
looking up at the sky
looking for hope
wondering why
i was the loser tossed aside
never knowing that i was just there to be broken
asking for forgiveness
when i did nothing wrong
sounds so hopeless
asking myself these questions
while in doubt is so useless
understanding myself so lost and confused
alone is the answer
by myself is a know it
broken by myself
beaten by my heart
the rain soaks my hair
soaks my clothes
washes away my tears
runs down my heart
burns the insides
i cant hold in these tears anymore
faking my socialized life
wondering if ill be accepted
people look at me
like im just another worthless
stuck up loser with nothing
alone and broken watching the world pass me
unkowing how to help myself
i look down
watch the cuts begin to form again
trying to stop the blood
soaking down my neck
mixing with the rain
going down my cheeks
slit through the pain
i am alone once again
and will remain
forever alone...