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this is why i should never love, ever

[22:41] Lyndsy: stupid msn froze
[22:41] Lyndsy: im on meebo no
[22:41] Lyndsy: now*
[22:41] The Faithless: hmm, meebo?
[22:41] The Faithless: I don't think I could make you happy now.. I just don't care now, I'm incompassionate, insensitive, and I've just grown cold
[22:42] Lyndsy: hearing from you made me happy
[22:42] The Faithless: I'm glad
[22:43] Lyndsy: i remember that you were one of the very first guys i loved
[22:43] The Faithless: you were the first girl I had loved.
[22:44] Lyndsy: wow now i cant stop crying
[22:44] The Faithless: please don't, I don't want you to cry..
[22:45] Lyndsy: its because im happy
[22:45] Lyndsy: i dont think you could hurt me
[22:46] The Faithless: I thought I did, that's why after we stopped talking I didn't come on msn
[22:46] The Faithless: I was a coward
[22:46] Lyndsy: i thought i had done something so i had stopped comming on
[22:46] Lyndsy: then i started again
[22:47] Lyndsy: hopeing you were on
[22:47] Lyndsy: and once you were
[22:47] Lyndsy: you had asked about our relatationship cuz of your girlfriend
[22:48] The Faithless: hmm, I don't recall.. someone else?
[22:49] Lyndsy: thats what i remember, she wanted to know about your past relatationships
[22:50] The Faithless: when was it? I really don't remember.. all I remember from back then was you.
[22:50] Lyndsy: it was a year after we stopped talking
[22:51] The Faithless: wow.. I have a small bit of it, I can't remember who though..
[22:52] Lyndsy: you had the same defalt pic too
[22:53] The Faithless: yeah, I probably haven't been on since then
[22:53] The Faithless: I still just don't remember..
[22:53] Lyndsy: im sorry im of no help in remembering
[22:54] The Faithless: You aren't, all I can remember is our good times together.
[22:55] Lyndsy: you used to call sometimes too
[22:55] The Faithless: I value those, the only thing I do value now
[22:55] Lyndsy: where do you live?
[22:56] The Faithless: same place, Methuen.. border of New Hampshire.. you?
[22:57] Lyndsy: same exact house, MA New Bedford
[22:57] The Faithless: same here, no new house, although I may move soon enough, out to Michigan
[22:58] Lyndsy: thats farther away? im sorry im still stupid
[22:58] The Faithless: I live in massachusetts now.
[22:59] The Faithless: I always have, I'll be moving to the gret lakes
[22:59] The Faithless: great*
[22:59] Lyndsy: ohh...
[22:59] The Faithless: yeah
[22:59] Lyndsy: that sucks
[23:00] The Faithless: well, it doesn't matter much to me, there's nothing left for me here
[23:01] Lyndsy: have you heard of a fair that happens every year and theres allways a huge barn sale?
[23:01] The Faithless: maybe, my minds ******** up
[23:01] Lyndsy: oh i was gonna say that if you could, you can go the same day i do...
[23:02] The Faithless: what's the name?
[23:02] Lyndsy: i have no clue....im so helpless
[23:02] Lyndsy: ill ask my gma tommrow
[23:03] The Faithless: I think I went to one, but I don't remember
[23:03] Lyndsy: ill ask my gma and maybe you can go saturday?
[23:04] The Faithless: depends on where.. my mom hates me so yeah she might not take me if it's far
[23:04] Lyndsy: ill ask my gma
[23:05] Lyndsy: i dont think it would be smart to ask her now
[23:05] The Faithless: Alright, I'll ask my mother tomorrow
[23:05] Lyndsy: id love to be able to see you
[23:05] The Faithless: I'd love that as well
[23:06] Lyndsy: remember how we used to talk about it
[23:06] The Faithless: yeah.. but my mom refused to take me for your birthday..
[23:07] Lyndsy: yeah, you might think of it as silly but i thought you would of been my first kiss
[23:07] The Faithless: yeah.. same.
[23:07] Lyndsy: to bad that didnt happen
[23:08] The Faithless: yeah, I still await mine though. I take it you've kissed right?
[23:08] Lyndsy: yeahh...
[23:08] The Faithless: I've never grown close enough to even think of it..
[23:08] Lyndsy: sadly my first kiss was with a perv who tried to pretty much rape me..
[23:09] The Faithless: beside with you
[23:09] Lyndsy: my first bf took my first kiss then later on tried to rape me
[23:11] The Faithless: yeah, I'm sorry. When I went to school mostly every girl tried to take mine, Because I rejected them all, heh It's all about my disgrace
[23:11] Lyndsy: my l'\
[23:11] Lyndsy: oops
[23:11] Lyndsy: my love life sucks*
[23:11] The Faithless: I don't even have one
[23:12] The Faithless: neither do I have a social life, so it should be expected
[23:13] Lyndsy: do you have a cell?
[23:13] The Faithless: yeah
[23:13] Lyndsy: can you text?
[23:13] The Faithless: yeah
[23:13] Lyndsy: can i have ur #?
[23:13] The Faithless: yeah hold on a sec
[23:16] The Faithless: 978-382-3539
[23:17] The Faithless: hmm I couldn't receive it, was it a picture?
[23:17] Lyndsy: ?
[23:17] The Faithless: I don't know, did you text?
[23:17] Lyndsy: nope not yet
[23:17] The Faithless: ok
[23:18] The Faithless: It told me I couldn't recieve a message
[23:18] Lyndsy: odd
[23:18] The Faithless: maybe you?
[23:18] Lyndsy: ?
[23:18] The Faithless: oh nothing.
[23:19] Lyndsy: my freakin ringer is louad lol
[23:19] The Faithless: so it was you?
[23:19] Lyndsy: blub im a fishy
[23:20] Lyndsy: <.< >.>
[23:20] The Faithless: eh?
[23:20] Lyndsy: ?
[23:22] Lyndsy: when was the last time you updated your MSN profile?
[23:23] The Faithless: a long time, why?
[23:23] Lyndsy: Relationship status
In a relationship
[23:23] The Faithless: ah, yeah that was with you
[23:23] The Faithless: I believe atleast
[23:24] Lyndsy: lol
[23:24] The Faithless: hmm still ********.. oh well
[23:25] The Faithless: but yeah I'm in a relationship now so, it's not a matter.
[23:25] Lyndsy: oh really
[23:25] The Faithless: yeah
[23:25] Lyndsy: thats good
[23:25] The Faithless: what about you?
[23:25] Lyndsy: sadly i am
[23:26] The Faithless: why sadly?
[23:26] Lyndsy: i don't think i really like him...
[23:26] The Faithless: oh, yeah it happens
[23:26] Lyndsy: ha i miss when guys didnt like me
[23:27] The Faithless: why?
[23:27] Lyndsy: less drama
[23:27] The Faithless: oh? yeah I miss when girls thought guys had cooties
[23:27] Lyndsy: yeah...
[23:28] The Faithless: but you can't capture time....
[23:28] Lyndsy: sadly
[23:28] The Faithless: yeah..
[23:28] Lyndsy: if you could, when would you go?
[23:29] The Faithless: to tell you the truth, I'd start it all over..
[23:29] Lyndsy: from birth?
[23:29] The Faithless: yeah.
[23:30] Lyndsy: interesting
[23:30] The Faithless: what about you?
[23:30] Lyndsy: 3rd grade
[23:30] The Faithless: why is that?
[23:30] Lyndsy: when i first fell in love (sounds stupid)
[23:31] The Faithless: yeah.. it's not stupid, love has no boundries
[23:31] Lyndsy: i have only fell in love 2 maybe 3 times
[23:32] The Faithless: I've only once
[23:32] Lyndsy: thats lucky
[23:32] The Faithless: not really
[23:32] Lyndsy: how?
[23:33] The Faithless: because I was stupid enough to drop it
[23:33] Lyndsy: ?
[23:33] The Faithless: it's an odd story, you should already know
[23:34] Lyndsy: would you stop talking to me if i told you that, i still love you?
[23:34] The Faithless: what do you mean?
[23:35] Lyndsy: i never stoped loveing you...
[23:36] The Faithless: oh.. I'm sorry..
[23:36] Lyndsy: yeah, i know that your prob way over it but i thought i should tell you
[23:37] The Faithless: It's not that.. I just don't want to love anymore.. I stopped loving everyone awhile back.. I found it pointless to.
[23:38] The Faithless: I stopped loving family, friends, and even you.. I'm sorry...
[23:38] Lyndsy: its ok, i understand
[23:39] The Faithless: I just don't want to do it over..
[23:40] Lyndsy: im sorry i brought it up
[23:41] Lyndsy: it was stupid of me
[23:41] The Faithless: It's fine.. I understand it, and it's nice to know someone still does.. I just enjoy our memories, and I don't want to make new ones
[23:42] The Faithless: I don't want the same thing to happen
[23:42] Lyndsy: what do you mean?
[23:43] The Faithless: I don't want to love you again.. I don't want to love anyone at all..
[23:43] Lyndsy: ohh
[23:43] The Faithless: yeah.
[23:44] The Faithless: I'm sorry
[23:44] Lyndsy: its ok, i understand, people move on
[23:45] The Faithless: I never moved on, I just don't want to repeat it..
[23:45] Lyndsy: i just shouldent of said it, our conversatation was going well untill i said that
[23:46] The Faithless: It's fine.. and I remember that other person now.. oh how I regret that
[23:47] Lyndsy: yeah...
[23:49] The Faithless: and to tell you the truth, it was your love that I had enjoyed and wanted to regain the most
[23:51] Lyndsy: still, i need to learn much
[23:51] The Faithless: about?
[23:51] Lyndsy: letting go
[23:52] The Faithless: sometimes it's just easier to let go
[23:53] Lyndsy: still i should of let go of what we had a long time agao
[23:54] The Faithless: yeah..
[23:55] Lyndsy: well i got to go get sleep for school tommrow, or at least try to sleep
[23:55] The Faithless: alright..
[23:55] The Faithless: It was nice Lyndsy..
[23:56] Lyndsy: yeah, so do you still want me to ask about the fair?
[23:56] The Faithless: sure..
[23:56] Lyndsy: ok
[23:56] Lyndsy: i guess ill talk to you later
[23:56] The Faithless: alright.. sweetdreams
[23:56] Lyndsy: yeah, you too
[23:57] The Faithless: hah
[23:57] The Faithless: I haven't slept in four days
[23:57] The Faithless: but goodnight
[23:57] Lyndsy: night



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