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Everyone sees my distant look, my glazed eyes, my down-curved lips, and i get told "get over the attitude, stop being so pissed". What if im not mad? What if my eyes are glazed form the hour of crying I did when you werent looking, what if my lips are down turned because its the sadness flowing out of me. Of course, i sit silently, same distant look, and dare not to say a word, because if i told you i cried, its weakness to you. Im pathetic and im asking for attention when i dont deserve it. No caring arm wrapped around me, telling me its okay. Im sick of lying to others to look strong. I could tell you my pain, i could cry in your arms, but i cant. I sit alone, scolding myself and telling myself its all i deserve. I dont want to do this... i dont want to be alone. I want someone to be here, someone i love and who can love me back. But in this world its impossible isnt it? Everything is falling apart, i want my love back, i want my parents to be there for me when i cry, i want my friends to be here with me through the pain.

But im forgotten