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Apparently I found these conversations very touchy.
So I had to keep it all down.
Beware below of out of character - ness.
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I loathe things to, Hibari.
You're not the only one in the world who loathes things.
I completely hate it, more than I hate the dark, when I feel helpless.
When I can`t save something that`s dear to me.
But. . . when something is completely. . . broken and beyond repair, and I know that I can't help it - I feel the need to cry.
I can`t help the fact that I'm emotional.
Like most people, when I cry - I can't stop.
It ends up with me crying a lot. Horrible, isn't it?
But, this relationship is the same way.
It`s broken.
Beyond repair.
No longer able to function.
I can't fix this.
I want to.
I can't.
What should I do?
Let it be forgotten?
I don't want that to happen.
But it will happen.
I can't do this anymore.
You can't fix something that doesn't wanna be fixed anyways, right?
I`m hurting myself by trying to see the light in this.
I guess this means I can't hold you anymore.
I caught you, and I tried my best to hold on.
But I couldn't.
Sawada Tsunayoshi to Hibari Kyouya
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You do not see the world from my point of view.
It hurts more than you can ever imagine.
Every dripping second I live through is pure disaster.
I am not a herbivore.
I do not have ' friends ' like you herbivores do.
I lack a reason to converse with beings like you.
I fail to correspond to such emotion.
That is why you are weak.
You can not hold on long enough to even earn my care.
You cry for a reason in which can not be fixed.
You are pathetic, Sawada Tsunayoshi.
This ' relationship ' you speak of is nonsense.
It had never existed ;
You can not fix what had happened in the past,
though you can only change the future.
Our future is already set out on a path for us.
Everyone. Every herbivore in the world.
We walk this path, unknowing what is next for us.
We may cross many complicated obstacles, but we make it through.
Or at least, that is how it is made to be.
Sometimes, we are too weak to endure this obstacles.
Once we can not put up to them anymore, we fade away.
Slowly, we fade from the hands of our fellow comrades.
Until we disappear into the night.
We will never come back ; some may not care.
If I were to not dodge the obstacle I see in front of me,
tell me, Tsunayoshi Sawada, will you cry for me then ?
Will you still love me even though I am fading away . . . gone ?
I know I am selfish, I have always been.
I do not want ' friends ' or companions to help me along the way.
That is because I think I can endure my path.
But I learned over the years I have met the Vongola Family.
My Familiga.
I am just human ; I am nothing different from the other herbivores.
I may be stronger, I may be a carnivore.
But truly, inside, I may be just like your side.
I do not want to change from my state.
But I know that I have already.
You did catch me, and you did try to hold on.
But you did not try hard enough.
Not hard enough to keep me within your grasps.
Now you have lost me in the storm once more.
What will you do now, Sawada Tsunayoshi ?
Are you going to let me fly free ?
Or are you going to search through the storm, mist,
thunder, sun, and rain just to find me again ?
I think I know the answer.
But the answer is worthless to me now.
Hibari Kyouya to Sawada Tsunayoshi
 x STORM r i o t · Sat Jun 13, 2009 @ 07:48am · 13 Comments |
