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I`m sorry . . .
This is my fault ; if I hadn`t mentioned yaoi into every detail,
perhaps they ( or possibly just me ) wouldn`t be that obsessed.
I probably don`t sound as much apologic as Ryuki - san,
but that is because I find it hard to comfort / apologize.
You may be thinking that I`m a worthless idiot ;
I won`t be afraid to be thought of as that.
I`m sorry for being a worthless idiot.
I know you confronted us many times about issues of yaoi,
but we ( possibly just I ) did not listen.
I`m sorry that I`m that stubborn.
Would you actually think I would think about this yaoi / 8059
stuff if you were to . . . jump off a cliff ?
You may think so, but I would not.
I`m sorry that I made you think that all my world revolves around is yaoi.
You are important. Loyalty means a lot to me also.
By reading this, you`re probably thinking that you have no right to trust me anymore.
I would understand that, since this apologizing journal post
probably sounds fake to everyone`s ears.
Though I`m not faking anything.
You are important to VARTAK ; if we were to loose you
just because of my selfishness, I would not be able to forgive myself.
I`m sorry for being selfish.
You`re right ; Twilight has no part of this.
I`m sorry for bringing Twilight into this.
Yaoi has not taken me away.
I may be too over obsessed with it, but I can stop talking about it
if it were to mean that you would forgive me-- us.
I`m human ; humans can change their ways.
If you want me to stop talking about yaoi when your presence,
or completely, I will stop.
I`m sorry for taking yaoi to a level in which other people can not stand it.
I read your journal post without thinking anything of what you think I am thinking.
Do you think we would actually think something like that ?
That is nonsense.
Riku - nii, you are a member of VARTAK, which are best friends.
Considering that, you are my best friend, Regan.
But maybe I`m not showing that affection.
And I can`t blame it on because I am bad at this anymore.
But you are part of VARTAK. You are out best friend.
I`m sorry that I can not express that enough.
I feel this is all my fault, and it probably is.
If I were to choose between yaoi and you, which do you think I would choose ?
You probably thought ' yaoi ' right off the bat ;
Well, that`s wrong.
Yaoi is simply just an obsession, a huge obsession.
But even through this big obsession, I can stop talking about it.
I will stop mentioning 8059 / 1827 / other yaoi stuff.
I`m probably considered a bad person now.
And perhaps that is true.
I dragged Victoria and Kristen into this yaoi business too much.
I`m sorry for doing that.
This journal post probably means nothing to you.
I would understand if you do not want to speak to me again.
But I don`t want that to happen.
If we were not to speak to each other, VARTAK will probably break.
And VARTAK is family ; we can get through these things.
But maybe I took it too far this time.
I took it so far that you might not want to talk to me again.
I`m sorry.
No matter how many times I apologize, you would probably think I don`t mean it.
But I am meaning every word of it.
I`m sorry, Regan, that I made everything difficult.
I hope we can regain our friendship as best friends.
Besides, it`s a strong hope, right ?
As I said before, I am only human ;
I can not change the past, but we can change the future.
Right ?
I feel terrible when reading your journal post.
Because I knew that it was all my fault.
Victoria and Kristen might be thinking that it was all of our fault.
But I am selfish for even thinking that.
I`m sorry.
It`s all my fault.
I`m sorry.
I`m sorry.
I`m sorry, Regan.
I`m sorry for being selfish.
I`m sorry for wasting your time by having you read this far.
I`m sorry for bringing the other two into this mess.
I`m sorry that I am only human.
I`m sorry.
I really am.
Please forgive me.
Edit //
I`m sorry but I`m in roleplays in which are yaoi.
If I don`t post I may get kicked out. ; ~;
Would it be okay if I continue it, but stop talking about yaoi around you ? D;
KJFSASJF.
I FEEL LIKE A BAD PERSON ASKING THAT. DDDD;
Edit Again //
Wao, now that I read over everything, it seems as if I`m begging. o.O
OIDSFJKD. I`M NOT SUPPOSE TO BE IN A HAPPY MOOD THIS MORNING.
. . .
But I just swallowed two big pills. 8DD;;
WTF ?
I feel as if I am making a daily journal of my life.
Ahahaha . . . ha . . . ha.
Okay, I shouldn`t be this happy even if I wrote that yesterday. DDD;
At least, I think I am in a happy mood. o.O I`m not sure why.
Ahaha, well, how about we-- er, I stop talking about yaoi when you`re in presence ?
Because apparently, you knowing me, and everyone else knowing me,
I can not stop talking about it.
But I will when we`re talking to you . . . ? o 3o
Ooh, this is a long edit. @ w@
. . .
I should just stop talking nao. = w=
 x STORM r i o t · Tue Jun 16, 2009 @ 04:15am · 0 Comments |
