Im the kinda person who looks back on my past way to much. I can never focus on the present. And when Im not rading on and on about the past Im worrying about the future.
Thinking about the past gives me a sick feeling. My childhood litery fell apart because of my father.
Thinking about the future gives me a bit of a scared feeling. I have pretty much only 2 things that could happen. I could stay with my current boy friend who I share more of a romance/best friend relationship with for 5+ years and spend my life with him (which both of us seem pretty keen with that idea wink ), or I could end up without him, and if thats the case Il probobly just end up doing nothing with my life-- or ending my life for that matter.
The present is nice. Its kinda freakish because of my love-life, but other then that its really nice.
Il admit I hate my life. But I keep living because the small good things in it can really have a big impact.
heart heart ~Kate~ heart heart
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