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I saw you as my everything
when i slept you filled my dreams
when i was awake you ran through my mind
i wanted you gone
yet i needed you to stay
your name was the tears on my pillow
and the smile on my face
i wanted to feel you
wanted to kiss you
wanted your body against mine
wanted to feel your warmth
wanted to hear you whisper my name
and i had an aching desire
desire to laugh with you
smile with you
be with you
i wanted to love you
for you to love me
for it to be us
no one else
and there's those things i never said to you
that i wish i had
you were everything that i wanted
everything that i needed
i gave you my heart
but i don't think you ever realized
that i was giving you all of it
you showed me light when it all went dark
pulled me up when i fell too deep to escape by myself
found me when i was lost
helped me when i refused because you were the only one to realize i truly needed it
obsessed?
too harsh of a word
but infatuated, yes
extremely
you made me second guess myself
and i loved it
and i hated it
you silenced me
you made me think
you made me listen
you made me answer
i despised it
but knew it was everything i needed
you were my moment
and i wanted it to last a lifetime
when i met you
i was crashing hard
did you know you were the one who caught me?
did you know you were the one who showed me love?
did you know that i still love you?
did you know you're everything to me?
if you didn't, now you do
i love you.