It seems that no matter what, I always seem to anger people.
I try to help, and after a bit, my words are turned against me in a bad away.
I do nothing, and I am being a traitor. Yet what hurts me the most is that I don't do these things on purpose. I act, then this happens.
From what people enjoy, to the mininal things we all do.
Martial Arts is a way to train one's body, mind, spirit, etc. This is also a place for discipline, and one thing people do not like is being disciplined.
Here when you are a teacher, you have to enforce this concept.
In band, we all have things we need to do. The percussion keep us in beat, and the others keeping the harmony and the melody going. Remove one section, and it all goes downhill.
Concerning siblings, we all fight. Yet what hurts the most is that none of us want this. We just end up fighting.
This has happened in all of our cases I believe. I know it has for me. I have a brother that has ended up getting pissed at me, then getting me against a wall. It was never a god time for either of us.
Yet, when we try to help either one, we could. We put aside our differences, and our pasts, and we worked together. We were our own band in a way, or a group in Martial Arts. We had our discipline, and we worked in harmony to a beat.
Though for some of us, I know we have family that we don't see often, or we haven't seen at all yet. In this case, we have the internet, and some of us meet that way. Yet what happens if we anger them?
If we anger them, then they think that we are the worst that there is. The bullies on the playgroound, the druf-addicts, all of those kinds of people. This has happened to some of us in some sort of scenario that I may know of.
When you are the one that is the bully, or drug addict, then that is the worst, because there is a thing called guilt. Once you do whatever it is you did, then after sometime you are hiit with a wave of guilt, and you become then opposite of what you were. A cheerful person becomes sad, and an outgoing person becomes a loner. These are only a few cases I can think of right now, and they apply to me. I have, on time to time, acted like a brother to others, to cheer them up, and in a way that formed a small family. Once you are in a family, no matter what you never leave it because you have built an unbreakable bond.
The same happened with this small family I joined. I was being a good brother, then was accepted, and that bond was built. Yet, after sometime I started being the opposite of myself...a jerk, and other things. This caused stress on the other family members, and for sometime I did nothing to stop it. Yet then once the guilt hapened, I saw the wrongs I did, and did my best to fix the problems. Though, I hurt them, which made me feel even more guilty. To this day, I still know what I did was wrong, and I vow that I will do my best to make sure that never happens again. For even if this happens again, the bond that was built will make it so that whoever caused the distress will be forgiven, given some time.
These are some thoughts that have been running through my mind, and finally put into word form.
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