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I'm not tired, I didn't sleep but I'm not tired. Got a strange sort of energy. A sort-of manic-depressive edgyness. Can't really control my fingers, getting harder to type. Thats why keyboards have backspace keys. No clue why I'm writing this down. I really want someone to baby me right now, in real life not online, but unfortunatly I have no 'significant other' because the only people who hit on me are scary gay guys. I would be flattered if they weren't all big scary jocks. But where are the women? I'm a sensetive male, and isn't that what girls always say they want?

Why am I writing this? It has no point at all. I spent all night playing the Sims. I made a author and a gardener who are gay lovers and they just adopted a daughter and the author has writen four books and is working on a third and all the books have an ABDL theme.

TV is awesome, and sitcoms are funny. Watched the same episode of Married With Children twice last night. I laughed and laughed and then I cried but that was unrelated to the show. And then I watched a show about how theres these mines from World War I underneath this guys farm but I wasn't really paying attention because I was playing Sims 3.

I tried to sleep, I laid in bed with my pink otter, who I call Bellini, and sucked on my thumb, because I don't have a pacifier (yet), but it didn't work because I got bored and the TV at the foot of my bed is busted. Also it kinda hot in my room but I can't sleep without cuddling up in the blanket so it was really hot so that also didn't help my trying to sleep.

Then for breakfast I had a lemon muffin, which my dad said is really more like a cupcake, and it was soooo good. I want another but I'm not going to have another.

I figured out that I can chain my hands behind my back with the flick of a wrist, but its a pain in the a** to undo. Now I just need to figure out how to whip myself with my feet. And buy a whip. And a pacifier.

My clan leader for Z-Day, and upcoming zombie game, sent me an invite to another clan. Now I'm confused and upset because I don't know wether he's testing my loyalty or if he's switched over to another clan or if he's started a new clan. I'm scared because if its a test I might get in trouble for doing the wrong thing. If he's left his clan or started a new clan then I'm going to be angry because I like his clan.

Going to my mothers house today. I hate my mother more than anyone in my family. I may hate my little brother (the evil one that hits me and yanks my hair) but if I had to choose who I wanted to be stuck with on an island, I would choose him because at least I could drown the little bugger. If I was with my mother I could try but she would spend the whole time bitching about how I'm not drowning her properly and how I'm a sinner and going to hell.

******** God, there is no God. The Bible was some tips on how to live life that somebody added God into so that the dipshits would listen. The reason people still have the Bible is because they need a fear of God to not go out and start shooting random people.

Its to early to say good night so good morning and farewell.