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Hatred
Holding on so long for my life to start
seeing things of opportunity to pass me by
dieing inside for the pain to pass
crying my eyes out at every passing dream that i never had
living so long in a lonely world
I've given up!!! the pain that melts my soul into hot lava
I'm done with this envy of the stupid things in life
I'm done with the nights with seething pain burning my soul
I'm no longer on a search for the fables and kiddie tales
I'm tired and broken may my should no longer move on
may i suffer alone in this hell i have created
I'm sorry i was a pain and a leech on your soul
may the fire and pain i suffer be my own
and may it rip me limb from limb as the world claims my soul
may god not claim me as i was a disease and may hell not take me
I'm deserting you as i say goodbye
live your lives as you had never met me and forget I'm anything
I'm in no need of compassion or of faith I'm a social disease
don't respect me as i am dead and don't cry for me
remember the pain and the stupidity i spread and the hearts i crushed
remember the person that i wasn't and hope i never come back
i don't deserve a second chance nor do i want one I'm only a phase
a mere distraction be who you want and don't remember
for it will only cause torment and pain
and to those who can't forget and to those who love me
I'm sorry I'm such a failure and a worthless lair i hope this bog swallows me whole and consumes me so i can forever suffocate on my own hatred and stench and bile just hate me when i die.