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How can we be so heartless?
How can we not even care?
Day after day, it goes un-noticed,
we just go on with our lives,
choosing not to even realize,

The pain, Tourture, and hurting
we have brought upon them,
our family and friends, even strangers we
don't even know,
we break them down with gossip and
random comments that mean nothing to us,
but break others down like fire in a forest,

when will they realize?
when will you see?
When will i stop abusing them?
The truth is the people all over the world,
never know how much one person suffers,

i'm popular and rich,
active and cute,
wanted by every guy around,
making the girls that pass me, angry,
little do they know i'm dying inside,

they're tiny gossip eating me inside,
i'm naturally skinny; they call me anorexic,
i spend six years of my life attemping to
gain weight just to make the voices stop,

so many people attempt to loose weight,
trying everything and anything they get their hands on,
do you know how it feels... TRYING to GAIN weight?
teachers stoping you, asking youu if you need help?
no one knows the feeling, not being able to wear tight clothing,
fearing the sound of whispers constantly ringing in my ears,

I'm naturally light skinned; they call me pale,
nick-naming me "casper" to higher their self esteam,
i spend hours outside attempting to tan,
getting skin cancer and battleing yet another
one of my many defects,
risking my own life just to end the constant chatter,

but there's no end, no end to the pain i feel,
"words will never kill someone" is what i hear,
parents telling their children... lies. they're all lies.
No one knows of the constant thoughts running
through my mind,
death, hanging, shooting, jumping,
should i wait till tonight, should i wait till i graduate,
the questions that haunt me every waking moment,

but the pain will never stop,
the words will never silence,
and girls will never stop gossiping,
I'm done with denying the truth,
this is me, i am who i am, and i won't change for you,
because even if i did,
You would always find another flaw.