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Standing alone
fear of others
straining out in the rain
waiting searching
feeling depressed
stars around gaze down
looking up
deciding what happens now
ever after
between the stars
between the hearts
between the wars
makes no sense
never understanding this
looking towards the future
love, pain
neither satisfy
both hurt
wondering why loneliness
hurts
every piece of life
carries large amounts of pain
wondering why the world
revolves this way
searching for answers
impossible to answer
looking towards another pain
realizing life just repeats
no one ever really stays in mind for long
always replaced
wondering why
keeping ahead
pacing faster
slow behind
i trail along
seeing the love
wondering why
my vision is different
seeing what i see
may be horrors of your dream
looking up
watching the life of another pass away
dreaming of your past
reminding you of your mistakes
wondering if you can fix them
now stalking towards your goal
you repeat once again
looking forward
trying to never repeat these mistakes
the world curses within all men
killing, destroying
dieing inside
these wonderful creatures that we are
use the knowledge for the worst
I look towards the sky
and wonder
how i can change
i saw once
the girl i loved
yet
she scared me
running for the skies
retreating away
hurting her as i do so
looking towards her
she looks away
as we walk away
realizing the bonds we had
meeting again
only to hurt her again
she acts cheerful
i wonder if she is
seeing this life pass away
quickly this year has past
another year wasted
just withering away
i lay awake at night
wondering why
why i cant stay with someone happily
why they cant stay with me happily
why everything seems so wrong
never changing
dissolving
burning cant stop the pain
only continues to destroy
breaking abpart
turning black
seeing colors stressed of red
feeling the kisses, remembering the hugs
all for nothing
just a past moment
enjoyment pleasure
all destroyed
life itself
broken within
life withers down below
seeing the skiwes pass by
wondering when your time has come
looking down now
below the lowest level
beyond the time
upon the space
now all around
destroyed by love
hate cures you
murder becomes your antidote
madness interupts your life
hospitalization
broken dreams
wondering what happened
than you realize
it was a dream
no murder
no madness
but pain and missery remain
slicing your wrists
watching the blood drip down
rivers down your arm
you start to lick your wounds but
feel that it was
once where your girl had licked before
stopping
putting it in the water
it wouldnt stop,
u pass out
wondering if this is death
u awake
in paradise
falling in love again
and realizing
there will never be a paradise
yet always
another chance
most lives repeated
as some make their own paths
loving the same girl again
i look down and fall apart...
drowned in my own fury