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This is a story about a girl who met a guy online and fell deeply in love with him. He loved her back yet he was taken. Still they talked and got to know each other more each day. They grew deeper in love.Then he and his gf broke up. But he started going out with another girl. Still the first girl stayed talking to the guy. She did so much for him, like giving him items on gaia and in rl....spending tons of her real money on him. Money that she shouldn't have spent becuase she's broke now. Soon he breaks up with his new gf and then goes out with TWO girls at the same time, leaving the first girl as a "side-girl" as he's called it. He breaks up with one of the girls and stays with the other, telling the first girl that after he left her, he would be "all hers". The girl even goes to stay with the guy in real life for a week. He is her 'first', if you know what I mean. She gave herself to him, thinking that they would forever. But that was a lie.....all he's ever seem to do is lie to her and use her and she let him. He played with her love, used it to his full advantage and then......he breaks up with the other girl......yet....he tells the first girl that he doesn't want to be with her.....her heart...is more than broken....she can't stop crying. She hasn't stopped talking to the boy. She now treats him like a regular friend. She's put her wall back up so no one will ever be able to get in to use her like that again. Never again will she love anyone for fear of being used. She plans to turn back to her old ways....to the time when the razor was her only friend and she never spoke to anyone. Perhaps that is her chosen fate....never again will she stray and try to be different.

Now....the guy has pushed his way even closer to her, talking to her constantly. She begins to believe that she has a chance with him again. They talk like they use to talk. She was happy for a time. But then she sees something the breaks her heart all over again. She sees a comment he sent to the girl he use to be with, telling her that he loves her. The girl is hurt and upset and she becomes very depressed all over again. And this is where our girl stands today.