So ya..I really don't know why im writing this I just felt like it.
Hmm. Well I am currently listening to music.
The song playing at the moment is:
Soak Up The Sun By Sheryl Crow.
I guess im kinda in an Eh mood atm.
I have been having a wonderful time chatting with some good friends on aim.
Well there offline now so im kinda..well..bored >.<
Well I guess to update you guys, I will start with my infected tooth. Its getting much better. I start school soon and I am going for registration tomorrow. Other than that im doing jobs to save money to go to Anime LA ^^ Thats going to be so much fun.
Rob Thomas- Years From Now
Hmm well I guess i have kinda been in an odd mood lately. I have been thinking of my friends in Sc and I miss them alot. I feel rather lonely in my real life. The friends I still have here in California don't really hang out with me. And there are only two that I hang out with now. So im lonely, because the two friends I do have don't do anything but sit on the computer and role play. Now at there house they have to computers so alot of times im just sitting there losing myself to my music.
All I ever Wanted- Base Hunter
There is not much else I can do. I guess im just scared of becoming dependent on my internet life because I actually have friends on here that talk to me on a regular basis and actually want to know how im doing. So im scared im going to become addicted to this life again...
Viva La Vida- Coldplay
I really don't see myself making many friends at my new school. Everyone I used to go to school with has graduated, im kinda left behind.. most of my friends dont even know my real character. I kinda just go with how everyone else around me is. The person I am online is who I really am, but I find it hard to show people in real life this side of me, because of the person I have made myself out to be. Im scared to change who I have made myself because I am scared how my friends will react. In real life im mostly just the quiet girl who's always taking photos and listening to her music. Never really talking.
Pink- Stupid Girls
So ya. I really don't know what to do about my problem. Im also having some rough times in my life at the moment. It seems everyone I thought I liked and wanted to start a relationship has just lead me on and dropped me. My hearts been broken enough times. Im to the point I stopped giving my heart to people. I just dont know what to do anymore. Im also having a personal problem at the moment. There is someone who I have been falling for that I don't know if I should tell them, due to the fact there may be someone else. So ya thats another problem I am having.
Taylor Swift- You Belong With me.
Ya I know its a country song! big shock lol. There are a select few I enjoy. Taylor swift is becoming a favorite. Wow I just relied I wrote alot. >.> guess when I have alot on my mind I just have to let it out.
Sex and Candy by Marcy Playground
I am not sure what else I want to write. Well I guess I will just end this now. I will just list the other songs that will play. Sorry for the rant. Feel free to comment if you guys want. Every word people tell me is taken to consideration.
Fly - Sugar Ray
Jumper- Third Eye Blind
Sharada- Skye Sweetnam
Fluorescent Adolescent- (Not Listed)
My December - Linkin Park
Shake It- Metro Station
Ok thats enough. Well I am going to go stare at the wall now.
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the missing your friends in Sc thing: Of course you're gunna miss them, they were your friends and i bet they meant a lot to you. Moving doesn't mean you can never see them or be their friends anymore; quite the opposite. Usually distance can strengthen friendships (I know by experience.) and you can still plan to see eachother, long breaks from school are a good time to do so.
The feeling lonely to lack of local friends thing/fear of not finding friends during the school year/ fear of being addicted to your internet life thing: If your current two friend don't spend much time with you, try finding others who will! Sign up for a photography class/club to meet people with similar interests, If you enjoy drama try joining the school play during the year (casts usually create a friendship or two, especially if your characters positively interact), you said you liked music so try listening to local talent; if you stick around until they're done chances are they'll want to talk to you to hear your opinion on their music, especially if it's a song they made. It's all about extra-curricular, people with the same interests gather and make for a great time to make friends. New friends and activities will usually end up taking up at least some of your time which will take you away from your computer.
The afraid to express your true self thing: I was that too, and I've found myself doing it again, but i'm trying not to. Gradually start releasing the details of who you really are (Ex. "I actually really like this band" "I'd rather do something else, actually" wink so it won't come as a complete shock to your friends if you feel you must do this. If they can't accept who you really are, then they didn't deserve you.
The love life thing: Try to find out for sure if there's someone else. Not knowing and refusing to tell them because of a possibly non-existant "someone else" can make life H-E-Double-Hockey-Sticks. (<--- To avoid censors. And because i wanted to say it.) Ask around a bit, and do some people watching.
That's a lot of words for you to consider ._.
Anyways, good luck with your tooth and saving for Anime LA and i hope this helps at least a little.
~Beka